9 posts tagged “consciousness”

This is my story. 
My story of reflection. 
My story of evaluation.
And, perhaps, yours too. 

I am about to make a prayer.  I am about to face myself.  I want to confront myself.  I want to wake the promise, the seedtime, and harvest my faith.  I am about to craft the light of consciousness.  About leaving the mirror and change my face.  About leaving the world alone, letting Mother Earth to be a separate entity from my soul, and change my internal conceptions.  Of myself.  Of my thoughts.  Of my consciousness.  Of my emotions.  Of my feelings.  It is about igniting the light within.  Of how I want to live with the universe within.  Of how I want to hold dear to being truthful.  Of awareness that will bring my life into being.

It is only by a change of consciousness, by actually changing the concept of myself, by magnetize paradigm, that I can be the Universe.  It is such a huge call for such manifestation.  It is such a tricky delusion to abandon and to live with deep and open conviction that I will live in miracles rather than waiting for them to happen.  It is about experiencing the results of these concepts.
 
I am going to imagine the beautiful tranquility of life with my mind basking genteely like the silent night.  Within it remains to lead all my thoughts and actions to strive to convey a manner of refinement and respectability.  Of damage control.  Of redeeming grace.  Where, with all my prayers and deep conviction, that lie is never - and should never be, in my vocabulary that I need to present to deceive myself.  Or, to all the poeple around me.  Or, a plan to cause a condition to disintegrate.  That it should even be used as part of conversation.   Nor do I have to inject white lies just to make my conscience feels good. Nor to make a conversation real.  It is just not worth it.  It is just not right.

I am going to envisage on the effectiveness of awareness that can consume my life.  That can change the paradigm of my mind.  That I must look with my heart.  As I think in my heart, so am I.  I am the arbiter of my own fate.  What I can hold in my heart, I can have it in my hands.  It is my concept of myself that determines the world in which I live in.  The concept of self is my reaction to life.  All my experiences, and those that inflicted me emotionally, are being produced by my reactions to life.  They happen through my manifestation; defined by the assumption of my concept which its principle affirms.

I am going to think just how easy to talk about myself.  Not to be ashamed and to talk about my inadequacy to acknowledge, with renewed appreciation and gratitude, that everything that is unfolded depends upon my attitude towards myself.  The light of consciousness can only happen, in all its forms and sceneries of existence, when I define the I AM concept.  Only when I can bring myself to this higher consciousness that I shall be free from the tyrannies of causes.  Free from the belief that there are causes outside of my own mind that can affect my life.

I am going to deal with my expression.  That is the right way for me to move with the light, in the direction of my dreams, and endeavour to live the life I have imagined.  I am going to reflect on the numerous topics on consciousness that have been written here in my blog.  On those faith to believe in what I will see.  Everything depends on my attitude towards myself, for that attitude alone is the necessary condition by which I shall realize my goal.  My dream.  My faith.

I am going to evaluate and turn each issue to be the foundation of faith to follow.  The changes which take place in my life is, and will be, the result of my changed concept of myself.  It will only be, through persistence, hardened into fact.  All transformation begins with an intense, burning desire to be transformed.  The first step to renew my mind shall be this desire.  Rain falls as a result of a change in temperature.  The same goes to events that befalls in my life.  All that is done by me, all that comes from me, happens as a result of my state of consciousness.  A consciousness is all that I think, desire and love, all that I believe is true and consent to.

To change, to be transformed, the whole basis of my thoughts, and feelings, must change.  These thoughts and feelings can only change unless I have new idea, for thinking and feeling are concepts of ideas.  The drama of life is a psychological one.  All the conditions, circumstances and events of life are brought to pass by my assumptions.

I cannot just be writing about issues and not understanding them.  I cannot just be writing about faith and not exercising it.  I cannot just be writing about love and not evolving around its beauty.  I cannot just be writing about positive attitudes hoping to change others but not myself.  I cannot just be writing about respect and not earning it.  I cannot just be writing about Higher Self because the essence sounds right and not living in its consciousness.  I cannot just be writing all these just to judge others.  I cannot just be writing these to empower another cause.

Simply, I should be the master of my thoughts and not slave driven.  It should be a personal reminder to measure my inner force, with heightened concentrated attention and observation, and not about, per se, moving the mountain.

The light of consciousness follows the light of my thought.  That is the phenomena of life.  When, and should, I pen down a thought here - be it about abundance, gratitude, healing, peace, love, faith, the very first thing I should reflect is upon myself.  How this particular idea, or a topic, is so important that it needs to be voiced out.  I should bring in the consciousness from where I have fallen short.  The lack that causes such an intensed desire to be highlighted.  The great secret of achievement, and conviction, is to focus the attention on the feeling of the wish fulfilled without permitting any distraction.  Any judgement.  Any negative attention.

In giving birth to all these ideals, I must have the mind that the methods of mental and spiritual knowledge are entirely different.  I should stop looking at it from the outside.  Stop comparing it with other things.  Stop analyzing it and defining it.  By thinking of it, and not becoming it by thinking from it.  Only when such an awareness is brought upon me, on entering into the experience, all its evolutions, fruits and manifestations and the consciousness would remain.  All that could be observed, afterwards, would be a higher [or lower] form of the same thing.

I should be writing because it is of vital importance to understand clearly what I want to be.  I should be writing because that is how I should live.  I should be writing about abundance because I want it.  I should be writing about love to bring in more love.  I should be writing about faith only to empower for a peaceful, joyful and loving consciousness.  I should be writing with respect to make a mark in the light of my consciousness for the next events to follow.  Consequently, what appears as circumstances or conditions, and even material objects, is really only the product of my own consciousness.

I must learn to turn from the objective appearance of things to the subjective center of things - from thinking of it to thinking from it.  I must learn to think from looking with my heart.  A paradigm is activated by attention.  The moment I think and look with my heart, consciousness is activated.  The Universe moves with motiveless necessity.  It is the paradigm, the light of consciousness, that brings focus to attention and manifestation.

When I think I am well, I am well.  When I think I am positive, I am positive.  When I think of love, I become lovable.  So is, should I think I am hate, I become hateful.  Should I think I am fear, I become fearful.  I think I can, I can.  I think I cannot, I cannot.  The arrangement of my mind is always arranged in the image of all I believe and consent to as true.  The rich man, poor man, a happy couple, a brokenhearted soul are not different minds, but different arrangements of the same mind.  I become what I think about.  I must be conscious of being loved when I know what love is.  I must be conscious of being healthy when I know what health is.  I must be conscious of being respected when I know what respect is.

Creation, all that mankind ever was or ever will be, exists now.  The whole of creation exists in me.  It is my journey, in the power of awareness, to be in deeper receptiveness for the entire contents of time and space to coexist in an infinite and eternal now.

I must take charge of all the consciousness that I bring into myself, and not merely talk about it or look at it.  To transform a new and greater value of myself, I must assume that I already are what I want to be and then live by faith in this assumption.

When I say 'I love you', I just love you.  When I say 'Watch your thought', I am watching mine too.  When I say 'I shall pray for you', I fold my emotions within till they become one colour and substance with yours.  This is the state of consciousness in the absolute fidelity to the assumption that I desire to be.  This is what wholeness means.  What integrity means.  I must submit to the consciousness of words to become who I want to be.  I want to be in the creation of truth.  I want to live an honest life.  I want to embrace the route that truth follows.

What a synchronicity!

Synchronicity One:

As I am filled with a desire writing this entry, somewhere in my neighbourhood, someone is singing 'Amazing Grace'.  Am I now found that once I was lost?  Am Grace now will lead me home?  Is "the Lord has promised good to me, His word my hope secures"?

Synchronicity Two:

Received this email about "God on the Mountain".  The Universe is, indeed, watching and accompanying me.  When this writing started, I told myself that I will imagine its creation from the mountain.  The mountain has been synonymous to my inner force.  It is a place I felt tremendous peace of I AM.  It is a place I take refuge from the 'down in the valley of trials and temptaions' - perhaps, even lies.

The story behind every successful person lies with his conviction.  Of how he develops qualities to promote and develop his devotion towards his highest morals and responsibilities.  Of his obligation to carry forward assigned tasks to a successful conclusion.  Of how he assumes the accountable phenomenon with integrity and holds such conduct with such care.  Of a purpose to establish a perpetual bond for distinguished characteristic.

We live in a frame of existence that follows the heaven dynamic.  Where the means and methods for rising out of shadows, into deep consciousness, and match our earthly life to the descriptions of heaven.  The heaven dynamic creates a structure where no one goes without and no one is left in need.  All things created, we are souls of heaven, are addressed with our own survival and comfort.

However, the path towards the heaven dynamic is not an easy one but once such a frame is created, it is easily achievable.  To achieve creation, we have to learn to navigate.  We must be willing to make what is defined.

Since the day I attended school, I learned the importance of associating myself with the school's motto.  From the very first day, all the students - including me, were taught to develop and achieve something in life.  We were asked to convey, to think about, of becoming a unique individual.  Of something that would bring us out of our shortcomings and limitations and of something that would be achievable.

All schools, all corporate businesses, all organizations and societies promote a maxim pressing for a process. For a purpose.  For psychological mental tool to assign brief expression of collective reality of consciousness.  Much of this is considered justifiable.  In the absence of collective convergence, having a single motto draws each characteristics of all individuals together.

As individuals, what we can do is to find our strength.  Find peace within ourselves.  Find the ability to laugh at ourselves and all our foibles.  We owe it to seize the heaven dynamic to legitimize our actions that will bring peace to our future.

Having a life mantra, the purpose and motto of life, promotes the ideals of truth.  It helps to keep our goals, and purposes, alive.  It is an organization of thought not likely to be affected with the maze of everyday lives.  It is of a focused path to life.  Of an opportunity to lend our life journey to create positive changes.  Of a driving force that effects our future.  It is an accomplishment of a consolidated energy taking on an attribute, in subtle proportions, for an impetus towards a divine plan to every person's life and every situations.

We all face obstacles in life.  But these obstacles should simply be looked at as challenges that we can overcome.  Knowing our life mantra, that has a deep-seated belief within, adds light to our consciousness.  It forms the pillar for us to fall back.  It brings balance to life process and its challenges, and striving to create joy and harmony.

Many successful individuals believe that a life mantra is necessary.  It is about taking loving care of their lives through a guided motto that allows awareness with their highest self, which in turn allows to give more joy, love and wisdom.  It is about acknowledging that they are free from the limitations of time to receive opportunities and manifest miracles.  The more we believe in our mantra, the nearer we are to become what we think about [ourselves].

A mantra must be powerful words that we can express from a sacred place of love and compassion within.  We need to think about it hard enough to create a major shift within our consciousness.  We need to choose the words wisely, always with the intention to heal, learn and grow.  It does not matter if we think it would be impossible.  But, we need to look at it as a challenge that we can overcome.

A mantra is the driving force to let us become a better person.  Of allowing the future to synchronize with our desires.  Of a positive methodological conspiracy theory to lend support for one collective thought energies.  It characterizes a belief of an individual for an accomplished end, aimed at eradicating on a lifelong quest to keep evolving and growing beyond self-imposed limitations.  It is a subtle high vibrational manifestation life force energy.

I have worked with people who have a thirst for knowledge and self discovery and to let their life mantras become their guiding force.  The believers have such phenomenal successes unfolded.  Perhaps, the most contentious aspect of the success is their likely value applied in their search for meaning in life.  Once cognized, the mantra reinforces subtle influences without them being aware of the attitudes have changed.  In turn, their own attitudes become more in favour of the hidden power to influence all factors beyond human control.

Choosing a life mantra must derived from an awareness of the truth of something; have a belief or faith of a theory of fact.  This renders a comprehensible sequence of life events and there is always the hope, however tenuous, of becoming one with dignity for our own destiny.  Behind every mantra, an often unconscious but necessary affirmation, is manifested to link us in the right place at the right time.  It is all about negotiating contracts of accountability for what may, or may not, seem to serve a useful purpose in the beginning.

Everything that is repetitively affirmed will come to sense.  Everything that is nurtured conceptualizes the appropriate end results.  Everything that a mind thinks streamed the intervention with the law of attractions and vibrations.  A miracle can only happen when we think we are already living in a miracle.  Our consciousness is unlimited and unparalleled.

To do anything with life mantra, a consciousness must first be acquired.  Understanding is an important aspect of becoming enlightened.  A mantra finds solution to a problem.  That is a fact.  A life mantra is a powerful nature dynamic of an alchemical consciousness.  The moment seems to come to every individual, in his perspective, that he thinks he got it from the more he thinks about it.  A life mantra assimilates the meaning of life by committing oneself on its validity.

We are born pure.  We are born innocent.  We are born without the knowledge of good and evil.  It is, at the later stage of our lives, that we become the product of our environments.  That our behaviorism reflected from classical and/or operant conditionings.  Which quickly begin to fill our basic directions.  And then, life happens to us.  That we become what we think about.  It is the beginning and the ending of birth.  A beginning of a conscious development to our actions and reactions.  At how a thought process consumes our life attitudes.  At the same time, it is the ending of a highest bliss with supreme enlightenment of formless realm of peace.  Of devoid ignorance, hatred and greed.  Of the pure land in the paradise of heaven.

At birth, the only instinctive action that we know what to do to communicate, other than making bodily movements upon our arrival, is to cry.  It is a natural sound language to let the people around us to know that we have arrived safe.  It is probably a cry of joy.  That our earthly existence will make us to enjoy our forms, the sounds around us, the odours, tastes, tactile sensations and mental images which our mind soon to encounter.

It is probably a cry of fear.  For all that matters, we have chosen to come for a purpose which, unfortunately, becomes harder to find as our initial innocence starts to fade as time ticks.  Often, there is always a desire for a change, want to change, but we seem lost at how to go about doing it.

We are born to complete a journey and to die completed with a purpose.  In the ultimate dimension of a journey being everywhere, in everything and in everyone.  Reality-as-it-is is in the handle of a con-conceptual dimension.  A Zen master once said "When I walk, I just walk.  When I sit, I just sit.  When I eat, I just eat.'  Purity, and innocence, is in acceptance of the truth.  A pure and innocent mind has no conditioned stimulus and response to judge but in realization of bliss everywhere as is.  On a vegetable leaf.  On a blade of grass.  On a sardine.  On sorrow.  On sarcasm.  On disappointments.  Without saying it is good or bad.

I would tend to believe that we are born with TWO purposes.  That, firstly, we are here to re-learn.  To complete human understanding so as to enrich the give-and-take relationship compelling us to experience happiness and sorrow.  To understand the concept of ultimate dimension.  To experience through application of it to gain the experience for true understanding.  To explore our own being in order to become whole and reunite our spirits with our physical bodies in a commonality of purpose.

The second is to make spiritual progress with an end objective to merge with God.  To live in his consciousness and experiencing God within us.  To surpass, and not identifying, our five senses, mind and intellect but making spiritual development.  The spiritual process beyond our looks, our intelligence or success.  No matter at what stage in our life, the God-consciousness is always within us yearning to be once again given freedom to be and to become a whole part of each of us.

Becoming God-consciousness is not about being religious but through right conduct and wisdom of philosophical beliefs .  It is about becoming whole and there is no necessity to struggle, neither physically or emotionally.  It is about understanding a wealth of mindful of positive mindset to become all that we want to be.

While the second purpose is in a call for wisdom that will illuminate everything and reveals boundless compassion, getting to it takes a higher consciousness of attitudes.  It embraces all living beings and awakens us towards transformation.  Of a change from the old to the new.  Of old winning formula to a new winning formula.  Of current view of our situation to a better view of our situation.  Of negative to positive.  Of ignorance to knowledge.  Of doubts and worries to understanding and awareness.  Of fear to faith.  Of anxiety to calmness.  Of disease to health.  Of death to growth.  Of sadness to happiness.  Of hate to love.  Of anger to compassion and forgiveness.

Everything is just is.  Every of our problems, of our adversity, of our catastrophe is just is.  It is how we  (want to) manage our emotion that will determine the end result.  In walking our journey here on earth, we need the consciousness of the second purpose, in our positive attitude, to lead the first.  In calling for wisdom, we need to take charge of our attitudes from all our acquired lessons to-date, of everything we have accomplished in the way of knowledge, wealth, position and status.

No man is an island unless we choose to walk a journey of a pilgrim.  It is possible especially for one having an exalted purpose and moral significance.  Jesus did it.  Prophet Muhammad did it.  Lord Buddha did it.  But, for the many of us, we just need the society - families and friends, to make us full.  To make us what we want to achieve, significantly or otherwise.  To fulfill an innate instinct of togetherness in the society of truth and the society of people.

Every man has a story, and for who he is today, based on the development of his emotional programming from his early days.  From all the things he sees, hears, notices, observes and the values of life that had been told, taught and imparted to him.  The total sum of all of his educated mind, analytical mind, intelligent mind, thinking mind and reasoning mind formed his habits and conditionings.  His emotional programming is the sum of all the decisions he made as a child about himself, about others and about love.  About his circumstances, fate and destiny.

All the 'pure' and 'innocent' - the birth trademarks, begin to fill with emotional programming.  Getting along with others in a community, in the society at large, derived from it and become a learned behaviour.  We begin to take pride in human nature.  We do not do what we know to get what we want.  Instead, we do what we feel in accordance with the conditioned mind from our emotional programming.

Studies show the level of existence to every man, in his life story to become what he is today, evolved around:

Emotional
Programming          Age                                           Contributors

50%                         From Birth to 5 years old             Parents, Grandparents, Family
30%                         From 5 to 8 years old                  Parents, Grandparents, Family, Teachers

By eight years old, he has received 80% of Emotional Programming.  He has learned 80% of all things good if this quality of life has been the order of the day in his upbringing.  Likewise, he has learned 80% of all things bad.

15%                         From 8 to 18 years old                Parents, Grandparents, Family, Society

By 18 years old, it is 95% [50% + 30% + 15%] of Emotional Programming.  His beliefs and convictions evolved around the sum total of his experiences from what he saw, watched, heard, observed, noticed, told, taught and become a large part of a learned attitude and behaviour.  It will be his to-be habits and conditionings.  It determines the basic directions in every man's life and to steer him as he goes on.

What remains is only 5% to make the difference towards achieving with the second purpose to life.  To re-learn and re-evaluate and to reconcile with the spiritual purpose of life and the reason for our birth on Earth.  There is nothing wrong for our entire life, and entire education system and entire society to live a rich material life, striving to achieve satisfaction and happiness.  It has always been the primary goal of all men.

We have been raised to chase, and to follow, the dreams of our 'Contributors'.  They have instilled us the same worldly purpose by encouraging us to study and enter professions that give us more benefits. They shared with us of their endless resultant happiness and satisfaction.

A man's story, of how and what he is today, is a story of his well being and the quality of his life and not an excuse for his failures and mishaps.  Of his sorrows.  Of his struggles.  His fate and destiny, or the karmic's effect of his actions and conducts during the successive phases of his existence, is not a calibration of retributive justice but about lessons.  About enforcement to lead positive attitudes.  It is about to live life by a desire for liberation from earthly sufferings.

A single thought in our ever powerful mind can change circumstances.  A drop of positive attitude will lead us to accept unresolved issues and tie up loose ends.  As we change so is the course of happiness.  We just need to be honest about things that we have said, or done, that had harmed our life story.  We just have to own up to our own failures.  We need to let go of useless attachments that no longer serve a purpose in our life that only cluttered our emotions.  A clutter, be it a physical thing or a belief, blocks all things good.

Everyone makes mistakes and we regret our past actions and decisions.  Exposing our frailties and recognizing that we are not perfect frees us from feeling stupid or less-than.  We need to turn the stone and flip the coin to bring light to those things that we are not proud of.  In return for a realization and through these experiences, we are going to learn a great lesson and have the likely to become a better person.  Keeping negative actions and hide them out of shame can overshadow our well being with shame and/or depression.  The thing is, we deserve to live life with joy regardless of our imperfections.

The longer I live, the more I want to realize the impact of Emotional Programming on my life.  It is not about being disrespectful  to all the people that had been a part of my growth.  It is not about disowning values that had made what I am today.  It is not about chastising worldly meaning in favour of a spiritual goal.  It is not about giving up the pursuit of meanings and abolishing goals.

What it does mean, at this juncture of yet another written story of my life, is about having a framework to capture sustainable and superlative happiness in my life.  It is all because happiness makes me feel good.  In God-consciousness, the soul is the God within us and one of the qualities of God is perpetual Bliss.  Bliss is that happiness which is of the highest order that is not dependent on anything else.

I need to take care of myself.  To live a life travelling along a spiritual pathway.  I need to realize that my physical body is the vehicle that has been loaned to me to live out my life in and to assist growing my spirit with.  I need to believe that suffering and illness are bundled in with that package of my experiences.  That it has an expiration date.  But, I also need to know that my spirit does not expire.

My success depends on my attitude.  It is far more important than facts.  It is more important than my past, than my education, than my acquisition of money, than my circumstances, than my failures, than my successes, than what other people think or say or do.  It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skills.

I know I cannot change the past.  I cannot change 95% of my accumulated Emotional Programming. I cannot change the fact how people will act, and react, in certain way.  I cannot change the inevitable.  But the only thing I can do is play on the one thing I have - my attitude.

Attitude is everything.  Life is 10% what happens and 90% how we react to it.  I shall pass through this world but once.  Any good thing that I can do, or any kindness that I can show, to any human being, I want to do it now and not defer it.  For I shall not pass this way again.

It is just a natural process.  It is just the nature of human mind.  It is just how many of us behave, or may want to act and function.  We seem to be trained, at our early age, to identify what we cannot have/afford/own/...... [fill in your own blank] - nor there would be a dire need, and decide we must have it regardless of what we have to do to get it.  As much as we want to be realisitic, our common sense often fails us.  Somehow, we always manage to get it in our heads that we have to have whatever "things" to make our lives easier.  Never mind the fact that, even if we could get it, it will just sit in a corner collecting dust until we finally give it away or throw it out.

Is that so?  Is it that hard?  Is it easy for us to fall victim of our own prey?

We are, often, never happy with what we have.  Be it a material gain or an intangible material force.  Off what we have already come into possession or use of.  We have been programmed to believe that more is better.  We make our lives busy, ignorant of our frustrations and limitations, to chase dreams that we have lost touch with the reality of what we already have.  We conveniently choose not to live life in contentment with any acquired possession.  We want to be happy but, it seems that,  we do not strive to live in its essence long.

When we have money, no matter how much, we always want more.  When we have reached a goal, we have nothing but set and work for another.  We use a gain of successes to achieve happiness, and a degree of peace, which in fact is an emotion and not a success.   Guess, the saying "The heart of an old man remains young in two respects, i.e. his love for the world and his incessant hope" stays true.  We no longer believe that being happy with our lives is enough.

The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.  We, unconsciously - perhaps, conveniently refuse, not look at what we have but at what we don't.  Instead of counting our own blessings, we count those of our neighbours.  Of our brothers and sisters.  Of our friends.  Of our colleagues.  Status, in society, appears to come with obtaining as much as we can get.

Our biggest problem with wanting what we cannot have is that we do not enjoy today.  We disregard the NOW and not living in our Present.  When tomorrow comes and we have gotten what we wanted yesterday, we will still not be happy because we want what we do not have that day as well.  It is just a vicious circle.  As soon as we have fulfilled one want, it is replaced by another.  We continuously looking backward thinking, at a very subtle consciousness, about the unhappiness and lack of satisfaction that filled our days.

We are often just ignorant as how to sustain an achievement.  To momentarily pause and keep in existence to enjoy.  To smell the rose a little longer and what it feels like to smell such a blossom.  To take stock of the positive of our own life with delightful invitation to further experience the bliss.  To be satisfied and then lessen our 'suffering' from insatiable desires.  To measure satisfaction by each breath, by smiles and laughter.  By lending a hand in need or teaching others.

There is nothing wrong to soar up the sky and lift our hopes high - and it should be encouraged.  Motivation is an evolution.  Acquiring new things is the real essence of progress.  We should look outside the box and explore more of ourselves to see if we are better at something else than what we are currently doing.  Our common sense should be our ally to dictate what we can and cannot afford.  Our conscience should guide us to what is sufficient and appreciate what is lacking.

Freedom and fulfillment of our soul take, to many of us, a lifetime to build.  Changing the dynamics of our mind require time, patience and a willingness to do things differently.  It takes our consciousness to become fully aware that will change the paradigm.

The key is in how we approach the acquisition of new things.  Planning and deligence are called for to enrich our lives.  We should not make things too easy to get new things without expending any effort.  Balance is what is needed.

I have lived a life in search for meaning.  For the purpose of life to be a life of purpose.  To lessen struggles to find what relevance there is to my existence.  To lay a claim to possess a greater understanding.  The miracle is not to fly in the air, or to walk on the water, but to walk on earth.

I have no special talent nor do I claim to possess any special powers beyond those of a mortal man.  But, I have lived my life facing trials and experienced great joys.  I was born into this world with nothing and zero possessions and very little ability to communicate with anyone.

Many spiritual roads and modalities were brought to my attention.  Each guarantees to embrace my being with peace.  To walk a journey filled with enlightenment and oneness with the universe.  I would receive emails almost every week informing me of another 'new knowledge'.

A life without cause is a life without effect and that we must upgrade our life everyday.  We need to think of the benefits to fulfill our goals.  Each day is precious but it is how we would want to spend it that will make the difference.  Each and every moment in our life is for us to enjoy.  To be in happiness.  To be in peace.  Balance and harmony.

Should I forget to tell myself that one of the most important things in life is to be happy and to treat anything else that comes my way as a bonus, I would be searching the purpose endlessly.  Life is a great big canvas and I should throw all the paints on it.  But I have a choice.

Do I want to paint it all at once or do I want to spend an entire lifetime for a single imprint?  I cannot discover the purpose of life should I not spend time to reflect.  To constantly reflect upon what that I have painted, or done, is placing blessings to a life that is already filled with happiness.  To a life that is joyful.

Abundance will not multiply when there is no gratitude.  Another desire will not keep us at peace when we are not going to [learn to] appreciate.  A discrepancy will always be a conscious thought when we cannot accept between what we have and what we should have.

I learn to take a break from the constant upgrade cycle to take time to enjoy what I have now.  I remember the first time I wanted to upgrade my desktop computer.  I visualised a 'perfect' system.  I knew how much I wanted it to be.  I knew how much money I needed and planned out the ways I could earn enough to own it.  When I finally had it, the desktop computer was infinitely more meaningful to me when I had put so much effort into acquiring it.

I remember the first time my Spiritual Master wanted his students to take charge of all his teachings and to organize a seminar.  To him, it was the only way for us to learn.  To put what we thought we had acquired into conviction.  I learned to appreciate.  That was the only way I will ever get it right, of the things I possessed at that time, by asking and practicing it myself.

I will always want to remember to discover the purpose of life by asking myself.  Life is like a coin.  I can spend it in any way I wish but I only can spend it once.  The only thing that guarantees my success - peace, joy and happiness, is when I take my time to enjoy the things I acquire a little longer.  It is discovering in the quality that quantifies the harvest.

It is not us who are never satisfied, it is the nature of the human mind to be never satisfied for very long.  We always seem to choose to want more.  To be something else.  To go beyond.  Question is, are we going to slip our consciousness into a perpetual slavery?  Are we going to disregard awareness to risk a flowering season without even enjoying its fruits?

Life, for the past three weeks, has been somewhat different.  Three weeks ago, I decided on a decision to meet someone whom I felt that I owed him a respect.  Of someone whom I had used his gift, since July, to expand my consciousness.  The transformation that I had, instantly, felt the day I started his Inner Dance.

I am glad to meet Pi Villaraza when he was in Singapore.  And, subsequently, one private session and the few other group workshops.

I am now walking through time breaking free of the bonds that tie me of fears, validation and anxieties to insufficiency and lack.  When all the external conditions remain the same - the air is there, all around and so is the vastness of consciousness that adds on another experiences of daily life, yet a subtle sense of life force springs awake.  It is a withdrawal feeling of sort.  Of a separation to dose dependent of old thoughts and actions.  Of alienation washing away deepest tensions and eliminating misunderstandings of true nature to expand with the flow of creative energy and consciousness within.

The gap between what I used to think and how I used to feel draws closer.  Inching to draw nearer synonymous immortality.  What I used to think that is outside me is now an internal consciousness.  God is no longer just an image outside my mind, body and soul but so much alive in God-consciousness in every of my cells.  When I think of joy, my heart renders an intensed energy.  When I think of love, a gush of forgiveness and acceptance radiates a healing green energy of empowerment.  Joy, inasmuch an experience of consciousness with our surrounding, capsulize the feeling into a state of mind.  Into oneness in a state of existent actuality.  In this consciousness, there is bliss and there is light in which these thoughts, feelings and sensations shine and responses happen.  So are the energy of peace.  Of love.  Of sorrow and sadness.  Of freedom.  Of earth and heaven.  My soul expands in the mastery of awareness freeing myself from the laws of form.  I have become more aware of almost every energy.  In Mahatma Gandhi's wisdom, "When I admire the wonders of a sunset, my soul expands in the worship of the creator".  The characteristics of the universe has no separation, no change of integrity nor any acts of dividing or disconnecting.  There is no beginning and end.  All that is outside is inside is outside.

Inner Dance is an ocean of laughter and crying.  Of light and darkness.  Of fire and water.  Of earth and heaven.  Of yin and yang.  Of one and oneness.  It has taken me into a higher state of alertness.  It opens all consciousness within.  I am pretty much aware of my heartbeat, my breath and most of my thoughts in my mind.  Of the events around me.  Of the people I come into contact with.  Of words.  Of actions.  I can smell the air as much as the grass.  All these scents, and sensitivities, of which I had taken them for granted suddenly seemed like a wondrous treat.  Life, and to those who knew it, is so beautiful.

I started Inner Dance on the eve of Ruby's one hundred days on June 27.  In my previous entry, Since You've Been Gone - The 100 Days, I wrote my thoughts that now have become, somewhat, the fruits of labour of a singular blend of a larger tapestry of understanding.  Of new process to connect a common question 'Why am I in this life?' and providing answers and clarity that I have been searching for.

The following excerpt, taken from that entry, gives forth a clear resonant where nothing [in life] is a coincidence.  The thought that was written rings true for synchronicity to take place.  Inner Dance accelerates the process.

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I was moved to go for a healing workshop - an Inner Dance yesterday.  There was a subtle force to bring me there.  Perhaps, you had observed for all conditions to be favorable for me and opened the path to walk my life ahead significantly.  Throughout the whole session, not only that I felt the presence of light around, there was a constant voice - through the people around.  The message kept repeating from the beginning to the end of the session.

"In the pursuit of peace and the joy that we seek in life, we cannot be pulled by people who choose - either consciously or unconsciously, to drag away our growth with them.  When time had been given, with all the intention to move forward in ONE consciousness, we have to leave those that are not nested in the multidimensional realities for our next waves of energy."

Today, you are now breaking it out and put forward, carrying everything in its right path.  You are teaching me that peace of mind comes from not wanting to change others but by simply accepting them as they are.  True acceptance is always without demands and expectations.  The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white.  Neither need me to do anything but be myself.

All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.  A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.  Whatever I can do or dream I can, begin it.  Boldness has genius, magic and power in it.  Begin it now.

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Inner Dance is not a dance.  There is no modus operandi about it.  Nor it is a dance owned by an individual or an institution, though respect has to be given to Pi Villaraza.  Pi is a highly realized and evolved individual who found Inner Dance.  It is a movement from within - the soul's inner energy that has been awakened.  It is a powerful healing transformational vibration of trust, hope and joy within, from Mother Earth and in the Universe. It weaves threads of pure love for us to receive and give, and healing whatever needs to be healed, restoring balance and harmony.  Inner Dance is a teacher of souls; a gift to guide us through life for its meaning ever deepening, ever expanding.

My personal experience with Inner Dance is a powerful spiritual invocation of faith and free grace.  It is a movement from within that sets my kundalini free.  The very first time I allowed this inward energy to move - fuelled an involuntary bodily movements, and to take control of my soul, I felt comforting heat moving through my lower chakras and filled throughout the fire serpent, and later redirected and refined all the way up to the crown.  The heat released some form of a blissful energy; an indescribable and wordless state of awareness of the inherent perfection and divinity in everything, including my own life.  It got to a state where thinking was not required, words and actions are spontaneous and perfect.

It was, probably, "Self Realization" unified myself with all that is and a personal development process of becoming uniquely my Self.  Of a realization to know myself and loving my own unique individuality.

Everyday, the movements engaged in Inner Dance are different.  It can be gentle and slow movements of the whole body today and yet a faster rhythmic movement the next day.  There is always a symbolic spark with each move, not only all these dances unfolding a lightness and joyful qualities overall but also of healing the soul.  The symbolism goes further with time.  Where there is a need for healing, within the body, the movements are directed towards that area intensively.  Consciously, as these movements are engaged, without the limits and instructions of the analytical mind, it eases the different aspects of life within.  All of the physical, emotional, mental and spiritual bodies are delicately healed to the subtleties with Inner Dance movements.

There is always the magical involuntarily movement.  It is guided from a higher consciousness with great intelligence and wisdom.  These movements cannot be directed.  I have been experimenting a mechanism to move my hand, or my body, in a certain position but it often directs me otherwise.  The inner energy, from the dance, magnetizes a very uplifting effect on my whole body, mind and nature with great liberating healing effect.  It awakens a divine spark within us.

Further Read:

About Pi Villaraza on Ascension
Inner Dance - Article from Town And Country Magazine [Philippine Edition, Aug Issue]

Inner Dance Music

The Inner Dance Experience

This is for you, dearest Ruby.

Days come and go, and it is already the 100 days today, but all the memories of you never cease to leave us.  The remembrance that will never tire us.  All in love was true.  They shall always remain in our hearts.  Cherished in our mind.  Accompanied in all that we do.  We will always remember you.  We constantly miss you.

These 100 days are windows of change.  A test of time; a test whose time has come.  It is our shared period of realization to find our paths leading into certain passages.  To become our true self with the coming of age.  An awakening, at the end of the 100 days, for the beneficial effects of the different worlds we are in.  With all the sorrow that separates between us, there will be joy await.  There will be an ascended reunion at the end of the rainbow.

As She Was [about] 100 days before her departure

I thank you for all the days we spent together; it was a fulfilling eight years.  I thank you for giving me the light the day you departed from me.  You take away my physical pains.  I am much relieved from the needling pain of my left frozen shoulder, my left sole and the headache that I often had.  Miraculously, they are now totally gone.

There are more that you left behind.  There are the subtle metaphysical changes you have put in place.   The eventual synchronicity that comes into my life, within these 100 days, raised my consciousness.  Perhaps, this is the beacon light of your love.  

Though it confuses me at times, you make me to realize my life journey.  To appreciate and embrace only the best.  To focus on what is important and reap with those that love me.  With those that accept me.  With those that care enough for me.  Just the way you were.

These 100 days guide with a beacon in almost every aspects of my life.  I find love in unexpected quarters from friends and family members that I had taken them for granted.  My thoughts about the meaning of life, or about love or about virtue or vice and about each aspect of life are slowly spelt with subtlety.  My thoughts find easy resonance with my desire.

I sense a transformation within myself with your departure.  These 100 days reveal a deeper consciousness within me.  To be aware and bring into reality the significance of my life.  To appreciate the full meaning of human bondage.  In clear transparency for social order and all the inherent weakness in the organism.  With its intensity of feelings I get from uncaring people whom I had met with reverses and in my own quiet desperation.  I forgive myself so as to forgive others.

The great learning comes on the eve of the 100th day.  You would have probably set the synchronicity; for answers to come into realization and for actions to be carried out.  It is for the new beginning.  You led me to meet wonderful people to speak angelic words of my faith for my beliefs.  To give me strength in trying times and bring the true source of happiness in times of joy.

I was moved to go for a healing workshop - an Inner Dance yesterday.  There was a subtle force to bring me there.  Perhaps, you had observed for all conditions to be favorable for me and opened the path to walk my life ahead significantly.  Throughout the whole session, not only that I felt the presence of light around, there was a constant voice - through the people around.  The message kept repeating from the beginning to the end of the session.

"In the pursuit of peace and the joy that we seek in life, we cannot be pulled by people who choose - either consciously or unconsciously, to drag away our growth with them.  When time had been given, with all the intention to move forward in ONE consciousness, we have to leave those that are not nested in the multidimensional realities for our next waves of energy."

Today, you are now breaking it out and put forward, carrying everything in its right path.  You are teaching me that peace of mind comes from not wanting to change others but by simply accepting them as they are.  True acceptance is always without demands and expectations.  The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white.  Neither need me to do anything but be myself.

All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.  A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.  Whatever I can do or dream I can, begin it.  Boldness has genius, magic and power in it.  Begin it now.  

These are the imprints about life you left behind.

... and till we meet again, we will always love you.

Let's make life simpler.  Afterall, simplicity is said to be a virtue.  Our acts must not evolved into complex subject matter nor the substance of our words tangled with powers of explanation.  What we feel over certain things and when these feelings postulate with our soul's vibrations, free from hypocrisy, act on them.  Honour the responsibility and move on.

Simplicity rewards itself a real and exactly what life presents to be.  There is always an accompanying peace when we dismiss the amount and complexity of things postulated.  We embrace the true nature of our soul.  We are soaked in tranquility within.  Within the nature of a tranquil peace, we find love.  Not the temporary love of passing phases but a deep sense of self respect and compassion.

Action begins with each one of us.  But do let our actions, and the intention behind them, go forth as a vendor for our soul.  Only to achieve its emancipation.  It is when we start to measure simplicity or how it can be justified or how it should be traded off, the more we are complicating synchronicity for future events.

I often answered to people 'Then just don't come' when they say Reiki Sanctuary is too far.  I have seen people lost in turmoil emotions when they do not honour their intentions.  When simpler things are manipulated.  When the truths are sandbagged to deceive or given a wrong impression.  When we want to block someone in MSN, just delete that contact.  When we do not want to be seen, don't 'Appear offline'.  When we just cannot get along with someone, or not interested in someone, don't honey coated our tongues and complicate matters.  We need to take charge of what we want and not to accessorize with excuses.  We just need to live an honest lives and avoid self inflicted perdition.

Fact is, we should purify our souls with our actions.  To free from sins, guilt or other defilement.  The more we appreciate who we are, the easier it is to see others for who they are.  We will then realize, and honour, that each one of us worthy of being alive.  Each one of us a unique being.

Simplicity leads to the higher kingdom of self empowerment.  Revealing itself many hidden power for a higher realm of knowing and communication beyond our physical body.  Everything in life, within our Universe, is connected.  One of the most important things that we need to understand is that every living thing has consciousness.  We are connected to the hidden energy of universal consciousness that permeates the entire universe and wires all of us together.

Understanding and accepting this concept - and making life simpler, is the most important requirement to achieve phenomenal peace of the mind-body-spirit connection.

The more I observe the world around me, the more I believe that nothing is a coincidence.  A lot of our daily interactions, all the reciprocal actions and reactions in our daily life, are not just random quirks of the Universe.  We need to watch our thoughts and possibly every thought that comes to mind.  Results depend on where the thought is - it sets up an entire chain of counter reactions and actions.  There is a reason for everything.  Even tragedy.  And, I would always want to believe that everything that happens will happen for a good reason.

There is significant message in every event of our lives.  From the most joyful and empowering to the inexplicable or seemingly unjust.  We just need to discover the meaning in what has happened and to see these experiences as gifts.  As lessons.  As opportunities.  We need to see every difficulty as a challenge.  A stepping stone.  Coincidences have genius, magic and power in them.  They are "designed" to be our conversation with God.  They are there for a reason and we should never be defeated by anything, or anyone.  They are the dawn of change for us to use of the nature's way.  They are the forces close at hand untried.

It cannot be only a coincidence, that afternoon when I spoke to Ruby not to fight nor struggle anymore that she slipped my hands to join the Rainbow Bridge later.  Coincidences follow a set pattern and have a higher purpose.  It is just that we fail to notice it.  We are unable to notice because we are often too caught up with our busy schedule.  With our refusal to see the truth.  With our disregard to our higher awareness.  With all the clouds of scepticism.

Two weeks before Ruby passed away, an incident happened when I thought she had gone missing.  For a good twenty minutes, I could not find her in the house and thought I had lost her.  I was frantic.  I was crying.  She felt my emotions.  The Universe must have led her to know that I may not reach the dawn saved by the path of the night should she passed away in the house.

We need to smell the roses, so to speak and to pause to ponder in order for us to link the usual happenings, in our daily life, for a greater scheme of things.  Answers to all our doubts, worries and fears - or even joy, are right in front of us all the time.  Question is, are we conscious enough to associate them?  To become natural with the flow and find solace and strength in our lives.  Becoming aware of the coincidences is one definite step towards our spiritual evolution.

We are living not in a material universe but exist within a universe that has been created out of dynamic energy.  When we discover the true meaning of the events in our life that everything changes.  We become wiser when we see how everything connects.

Those spoken words told to Ruby not to fight and struggle were reflection of my mental past.  I was not in touch with the life that I intend to lead.  Until I get to it, nothing is going to feel right.  It is her death that makes sense of the catastrophe.  I am overcoming obstacles to realize my potential, strength and will power.  To be harmony within a relationship reaching a stage of philosophical understanding at one with the world.

When the light has appeared, where does the darkness go?  How can one wish to hold for long the light of the setting sun?

Nothing is a co-incidence.  The people we meet affect our life.  The successes and downfalls that we experience create who we are.  The rejections and the bad experiences can be lessons about trust.

We may think we have a choice in what we do, but in reality, we will always make the same decision when all the situations around us remain the same.  The one we think is the right one at that time.  The right way, or passage, does not belong to things seen nor to things unseen.  It does not belong to things known, nor to things unknown.  We just have to open ourselves as wide as the sky to allow the way.

For now, it is about time that I should start trusting my intuition rather than letting practicality override all my thoughts.  The thing is, everyone of us have an inherent energy that can be projected in any direction if only we can focus on it for long.  We just need to allow our souls with the power of positive thinking.  No soul that aspires can ever fail to rise; no heart that loves can ever be abandoned.

Year:  2008

As we look around us, the month of August, year 2008, we seem to notice the collective consciousness of light is being focussed to our mothers.  How we start to reflect on their love.  How it will impact us.  The lesson it carries.  The experiences that emerge with a golden flame of ascended love.  The unfolding of our life plan.  The arising of consciousness of divine gift, through their love, and the evolution of our mind towards oneness.

August 2008 is a month of Fifth dimension - the formation of New Earth and Co-operation.  It is a magnificent month in which Mother Earth will be flooded with Golden Flame and the rebirth of great perfection and beauty.  It is the next step in our evolution to bring heaven to earth.

Just look around us.  Some of us are blessed that the lesson comes from our source - our mother.  There's a saying - If it was going to be easy, it never would have started with something called "labour".    That's what motherhood is about.  And, that is precisely what labour of love is.  We need to recognise this phenomenon.  We need to deeply understand its implication.

Mothers and August 2008 - they are not a separate entity.  They happen to bring us to the economy of love, of co-operation and sharing.  It is the beginning of a new creation of networks and structures for the fifth dimensional energy of oneness and unconditional love.  As the consciousness of light connects with our hearts, it will be immensely powerful.  This is the merging of spiritual, political and social forms of being and functions.

Let's just observe some of the world events happening in the month of August.  We have the 'One world, One dream' bringing the world to focus to Beijing; the political changes in Malaysia, Thailand and USA and the spiritual awakenings of individuals around us .  What is common here, is a desire to work from Love, the heart and with spirit.  It is, at this level, that the formation of networks of conscious and awakened individuals begins to take shape.

Simply, it is about renewing the old lesson for giving gratitude.  For rejoicing love.  For further development of acceptance and the possibilities that lie in front of us and that lie within us.  It is a spiritual realm of higher consciousness.  The time has come for us to draw into soul families and groups and to co-operate together.  With it, there is a need for us to forgive.  The need for us to realise.  The need for us to accept.  The need for us to open up with love.  The need for us to bring peace within.  And, the need for us to respect.  We need to look within and then to look out.

It is the consciousness level of crescendo change in us and in our environments - physcial, mental and spiritual.  It is the consciousness of love that will manifest the next phase.  It will assist us in accordance to our choices and to achieve divine management for the highest good of all.

We should take advantage of this fifth dimensional consciousness of light to understand ourselves.  To ask ourselves 'where do I fit in?'.  As we are awakened, we need to allow ourselves to express our roles.  We need to create the essence of the consciousness of one.  Just as in mother's labour, we need to express the motherhood's labour of love into us.  Only when we are able to think, to experience, to feel - 'internalisation' - that we serve life with purpose.  We re-create the legend that since God could not be physically present amongst all His people, He created mothers to take His place.  We should live life with enormous depth of commitment, just like our mothers, with the loveliest masterpiece of the heart of love.  It has to be filled with unselfish and endless devotions, joys, pains and sacrifices.

For us to embrace and harvest this fifth dimension, we must ask ourselves further questions.  'How do I go from here?'.  'What do I need to know?'.  'Where will it bring me?'

It starts with patient and forgiveness.  It must be filled with hopes, dreams, tears and pleasures.  It has to be a lifelong commitment.  More often, it requires much more giving than receiving.  But it is something that is given with delight, gratitude, enthusiasm and satisfaction.  It cannot be measured.  For it has no beginning.  No end.

Let the love for our mothers open up a wonderful transformation of our mind.  The awareness for prayers.  The desperation for continued joy.  The determination to live.  The ceremony for togetherness.  The celebration to forgive.  The integration of love.

It is a month of blessing of Light.  We only need to learn to surrender to the guidance of Love by being willing to participate.  By being willing to wait in patience.  When the time is right, there will be a heightened consciousness that will lead us to a perfect place in the emerging structure of August Consciousness.

Let love be love.  Let peace be our individual empowerment.  Each of us is a part of the whole, and each one of us is needed to create the whole.  This is the essence of the Consciousness of One.

Dedication:

My thoughts and prayers are with the mothers of my friends - JH, Roy, Sam.  Also, for the well being of these friends and their families.

This writing is also for all Mothers.