We are born pure.  We are born innocent.  We are born without the knowledge of good and evil.  It is, at the later stage of our lives, that we become the product of our environments.  That our behaviorism reflected from classical and/or operant conditionings.  Which quickly begin to fill our basic directions.  And then, life happens to us.  That we become what we think about.  It is the beginning and the ending of birth.  A beginning of a conscious development to our actions and reactions.  At how a thought process consumes our life attitudes.  At the same time, it is the ending of a highest bliss with supreme enlightenment of formless realm of peace.  Of devoid ignorance, hatred and greed.  Of the pure land in the paradise of heaven.

At birth, the only instinctive action that we know what to do to communicate, other than making bodily movements upon our arrival, is to cry.  It is a natural sound language to let the people around us to know that we have arrived safe.  It is probably a cry of joy.  That our earthly existence will make us to enjoy our forms, the sounds around us, the odours, tastes, tactile sensations and mental images which our mind soon to encounter.

It is probably a cry of fear.  For all that matters, we have chosen to come for a purpose which, unfortunately, becomes harder to find as our initial innocence starts to fade as time ticks.  Often, there is always a desire for a change, want to change, but we seem lost at how to go about doing it.

We are born to complete a journey and to die completed with a purpose.  In the ultimate dimension of a journey being everywhere, in everything and in everyone.  Reality-as-it-is is in the handle of a con-conceptual dimension.  A Zen master once said "When I walk, I just walk.  When I sit, I just sit.  When I eat, I just eat.'  Purity, and innocence, is in acceptance of the truth.  A pure and innocent mind has no conditioned stimulus and response to judge but in realization of bliss everywhere as is.  On a vegetable leaf.  On a blade of grass.  On a sardine.  On sorrow.  On sarcasm.  On disappointments.  Without saying it is good or bad.

I would tend to believe that we are born with TWO purposes.  That, firstly, we are here to re-learn.  To complete human understanding so as to enrich the give-and-take relationship compelling us to experience happiness and sorrow.  To understand the concept of ultimate dimension.  To experience through application of it to gain the experience for true understanding.  To explore our own being in order to become whole and reunite our spirits with our physical bodies in a commonality of purpose.

The second is to make spiritual progress with an end objective to merge with God.  To live in his consciousness and experiencing God within us.  To surpass, and not identifying, our five senses, mind and intellect but making spiritual development.  The spiritual process beyond our looks, our intelligence or success.  No matter at what stage in our life, the God-consciousness is always within us yearning to be once again given freedom to be and to become a whole part of each of us.

Becoming God-consciousness is not about being religious but through right conduct and wisdom of philosophical beliefs .  It is about becoming whole and there is no necessity to struggle, neither physically or emotionally.  It is about understanding a wealth of mindful of positive mindset to become all that we want to be.

While the second purpose is in a call for wisdom that will illuminate everything and reveals boundless compassion, getting to it takes a higher consciousness of attitudes.  It embraces all living beings and awakens us towards transformation.  Of a change from the old to the new.  Of old winning formula to a new winning formula.  Of current view of our situation to a better view of our situation.  Of negative to positive.  Of ignorance to knowledge.  Of doubts and worries to understanding and awareness.  Of fear to faith.  Of anxiety to calmness.  Of disease to health.  Of death to growth.  Of sadness to happiness.  Of hate to love.  Of anger to compassion and forgiveness.

Everything is just is.  Every of our problems, of our adversity, of our catastrophe is just is.  It is how we  (want to) manage our emotion that will determine the end result.  In walking our journey here on earth, we need the consciousness of the second purpose, in our positive attitude, to lead the first.  In calling for wisdom, we need to take charge of our attitudes from all our acquired lessons to-date, of everything we have accomplished in the way of knowledge, wealth, position and status.

No man is an island unless we choose to walk a journey of a pilgrim.  It is possible especially for one having an exalted purpose and moral significance.  Jesus did it.  Prophet Muhammad did it.  Lord Buddha did it.  But, for the many of us, we just need the society - families and friends, to make us full.  To make us what we want to achieve, significantly or otherwise.  To fulfill an innate instinct of togetherness in the society of truth and the society of people.

Every man has a story, and for who he is today, based on the development of his emotional programming from his early days.  From all the things he sees, hears, notices, observes and the values of life that had been told, taught and imparted to him.  The total sum of all of his educated mind, analytical mind, intelligent mind, thinking mind and reasoning mind formed his habits and conditionings.  His emotional programming is the sum of all the decisions he made as a child about himself, about others and about love.  About his circumstances, fate and destiny.

All the 'pure' and 'innocent' - the birth trademarks, begin to fill with emotional programming.  Getting along with others in a community, in the society at large, derived from it and become a learned behaviour.  We begin to take pride in human nature.  We do not do what we know to get what we want.  Instead, we do what we feel in accordance with the conditioned mind from our emotional programming.

Studies show the level of existence to every man, in his life story to become what he is today, evolved around:

Emotional
Programming          Age                                           Contributors

50%                         From Birth to 5 years old             Parents, Grandparents, Family
30%                         From 5 to 8 years old                  Parents, Grandparents, Family, Teachers

By eight years old, he has received 80% of Emotional Programming.  He has learned 80% of all things good if this quality of life has been the order of the day in his upbringing.  Likewise, he has learned 80% of all things bad.

15%                         From 8 to 18 years old                Parents, Grandparents, Family, Society

By 18 years old, it is 95% [50% + 30% + 15%] of Emotional Programming.  His beliefs and convictions evolved around the sum total of his experiences from what he saw, watched, heard, observed, noticed, told, taught and become a large part of a learned attitude and behaviour.  It will be his to-be habits and conditionings.  It determines the basic directions in every man's life and to steer him as he goes on.

What remains is only 5% to make the difference towards achieving with the second purpose to life.  To re-learn and re-evaluate and to reconcile with the spiritual purpose of life and the reason for our birth on Earth.  There is nothing wrong for our entire life, and entire education system and entire society to live a rich material life, striving to achieve satisfaction and happiness.  It has always been the primary goal of all men.

We have been raised to chase, and to follow, the dreams of our 'Contributors'.  They have instilled us the same worldly purpose by encouraging us to study and enter professions that give us more benefits. They shared with us of their endless resultant happiness and satisfaction.

A man's story, of how and what he is today, is a story of his well being and the quality of his life and not an excuse for his failures and mishaps.  Of his sorrows.  Of his struggles.  His fate and destiny, or the karmic's effect of his actions and conducts during the successive phases of his existence, is not a calibration of retributive justice but about lessons.  About enforcement to lead positive attitudes.  It is about to live life by a desire for liberation from earthly sufferings.

A single thought in our ever powerful mind can change circumstances.  A drop of positive attitude will lead us to accept unresolved issues and tie up loose ends.  As we change so is the course of happiness.  We just need to be honest about things that we have said, or done, that had harmed our life story.  We just have to own up to our own failures.  We need to let go of useless attachments that no longer serve a purpose in our life that only cluttered our emotions.  A clutter, be it a physical thing or a belief, blocks all things good.

Everyone makes mistakes and we regret our past actions and decisions.  Exposing our frailties and recognizing that we are not perfect frees us from feeling stupid or less-than.  We need to turn the stone and flip the coin to bring light to those things that we are not proud of.  In return for a realization and through these experiences, we are going to learn a great lesson and have the likely to become a better person.  Keeping negative actions and hide them out of shame can overshadow our well being with shame and/or depression.  The thing is, we deserve to live life with joy regardless of our imperfections.

The longer I live, the more I want to realize the impact of Emotional Programming on my life.  It is not about being disrespectful  to all the people that had been a part of my growth.  It is not about disowning values that had made what I am today.  It is not about chastising worldly meaning in favour of a spiritual goal.  It is not about giving up the pursuit of meanings and abolishing goals.

What it does mean, at this juncture of yet another written story of my life, is about having a framework to capture sustainable and superlative happiness in my life.  It is all because happiness makes me feel good.  In God-consciousness, the soul is the God within us and one of the qualities of God is perpetual Bliss.  Bliss is that happiness which is of the highest order that is not dependent on anything else.

I need to take care of myself.  To live a life travelling along a spiritual pathway.  I need to realize that my physical body is the vehicle that has been loaned to me to live out my life in and to assist growing my spirit with.  I need to believe that suffering and illness are bundled in with that package of my experiences.  That it has an expiration date.  But, I also need to know that my spirit does not expire.

My success depends on my attitude.  It is far more important than facts.  It is more important than my past, than my education, than my acquisition of money, than my circumstances, than my failures, than my successes, than what other people think or say or do.  It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skills.

I know I cannot change the past.  I cannot change 95% of my accumulated Emotional Programming. I cannot change the fact how people will act, and react, in certain way.  I cannot change the inevitable.  But the only thing I can do is play on the one thing I have - my attitude.

Attitude is everything.  Life is 10% what happens and 90% how we react to it.  I shall pass through this world but once.  Any good thing that I can do, or any kindness that I can show, to any human being, I want to do it now and not defer it.  For I shall not pass this way again.

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Ok, it is not really cool. 

No. 1 Not Cool List - No Touch Screen LCD:

'Cool' is when I am able to fully utilised Windows 7 with the touch screen monitor.  Geez, for now, touch screen is waaayyyy too expensive and the largest screen available is only the 17".  So, this is obviously the top 'Not cool' in my list.

Yay!!!

Somehow, I am excited with Windows 7.  In my case, it has been a long wait - I have always wanted to jump ship from XP to Vista [without the desktop gadgets] but never really ventured into it because of its initial bad reviews.  And more bad reviews when it was in its beta and RC stages.  The only thing I got close to Vista was to run the Transformation Pack.  Still, I am thankful to M$ for constantly upgrading its operating system.  Thankful that I had always been able to sit in front of my computer, surfing and doing stuffs, with such a good operating system.

When Windows 7 was launched on 22 October, I was prepared to make my way to Sim Lim Square to get a copy.  Yes, I was amongst the thousands.  The different between me and Amazon: Windows 7 Is 'The Biggest Pre-Order Product Of All Time'., I can only afford the OEM full retail version.  Yes, some people may say to wait a little longer is wise, to give this new product a little more time to get stable.  Yes, M$ will still provide the product support to Window XP till 2014/2015.  Still, I have waited a good two years [Vista was launched on Jan 30, 2007].

No 2 Not Cool List - Not 64 bit Windows 7 Ultimate:

I got my OEM full retail version and, in my opinion, for a good price.  Guess, the market is still hot marketing Windows 7 and freebies are what attracted consumers.  The price that I paid was $255.  In return, I got a freebie worth $39 - I chose Microsoft Digital Media Keyboard 3000.  Doing the maths, my OEM only costs me $216 for the 64bit Windows 7 Professional.  What I had wanted was to get the 64 bit Windows Ultimate!

Windows 7 is also an excuse for me to pump in more RAM in my system.  It is good to see such a big number in your system when XP can't.  The 64bit version is a must.  It is the beginning of a better technology to extend virtual and physical address spaces, doubles the width and provides other enhancements.

Installation is a breeze.  It is fast!  In about 5 minutes, the system is running.  Other hardware drivers are automatically detected and installed.  But, of course, it is always good to install your hardware with the right manufacturer's version.  I am so 'wow' with its fast boot.  So 'wow' with its immediate responses.

One dreadful thing about Windows 7 is the missing Outlook Express.  I kinda like this old dedicated mail program.  Anyway, am now getting used to Windows Live Mail and, yay! was able - at last, to import all my messages.

No 3 Not Cool List - Not a Perfect 7.9 Performance Rate:

There are cool enhancements inside Windows 7.  I like the added accessories [improved Calculator, Sticky Notes, Snipping Tool to name few].  Can't wait to further tweaks this OS.  Unfortunately, Windows 7 is only giving me a 5.9 rating for my system -  hahaha, not cool lor.

Windows 7 Computer Rate

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One year on ....

Last year, on 20th October 2008, we moved out of Hertford Apartment [more read: As The Curtain Falls] to our new home.  We named her "Reiki Sanctuary".  Reiki as she houses all the ability to heal and the intelligence of understanding without ever depleting the universal life force energy; the physical earthly consciousness to connect us with all the universal abundance and enriching our spiritual divinity presence.

"The Artwork"

Reiki Sanctuary evolves the body and soul.  Of inviting good fortune.  Of gaining mystical revelation.  Of empowering knowledge and spiritual power.  It is a home for a soul to live his day, just for today to:

* Do not be angy
* Do not worry
* Be grateful
* Work with integrity
* Be kind to others and to yourself

It has been one complete year.  A full year that has filled us with memories that will last a lifetime.  A year that pitted us low with grief over the loss of our beloved Ruby to a new height of love and bonding.

I remember waking up that morning, for the last time in Hertford, grimaced with sadness.  I cooked Ruby's breakfast for that one last one early before the movers came.  I was crying.  It was sad to leave Hertford.  It was sad to leave a home that had given us so much life and hope for twenty years.

Thanks for the memory that does not fade in my heart, I wake up that morning almost exactly the same time a year ago.  Perhaps, subconsciously, I just want to embrace a memory that can't never be altered.  Perhaps, it is a way to wake up another morning but this time, it is all about creating new experiences.

We move into Reiki Sanctuary with renewed spirits to replenish life; restoring our vigor for prayerful intent in abundance of divine relational life.  To motivate us to live life through love to heal the heart, mind and emotions.  To engage in positive thoughts to create for a happier journey so that life shall be the cyclical cause of these cirucmstances.  The Sanctuary may be a little quiet without Ruby but the soul remains sacred.  It still inspires the perfect representation of our souls to love and to articulate appreciation, reverence, care, gratitude.  And peace.

Reiki Sanctuary has found that voice.  With her deepest appreciation for the world around us.  She has the elements of living, the essence of life evokes reflection and connection and to the wonders of life as a whole.  Beauty, of yet another life journey, is found here on these beautiful wonders of Reiki Sanctuary.

Just as I fill the rest of the day to pay attention to the many curves and lines that twist and cross to the wonders of events and things, the Universe conspires a new encounter.  What's a better way to start another year - and the many years ahead, with this email that I receive:

"We have nothing to lose.  They say whoever receives this buddha will receive an abundance of unexpected money or some very good news."

Abundance - Oh Yes!

One Year On -- Pictures Galore

The Two Faces of the Living Room

The Two Faces of Balcony

The Two Faces of The Dining Room

Aerial View of Master Bedroom

Aerial View of Master Toilet

Aerial View of The Study Area

The Two Faces of Our Guest Room

The Two Worlds - Split Images of Different Areas in Reiki Sanctuary

Aerial View of the Complete Kitchen

The Two Faces of the Guest Toilet

Chipz n nice - Our Collections

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This is for my friends, ML and KC.

It was an unexpected twist for an eventful Saturday; the evening of 17th October was spent to uncover our journey.  The Journey Home.

Like the two of you, I am still warped with unexplained emotions.  Like the two of you, I am inspired too.  Like the two of you, "I love you" too. 

I am all tears reading your emails.  "Thank You" my friends.

It was a night, that wonderful night, bringing the three of us home.  In all appropriateness for the time and the energy of completion, that our journey home had been written to be spent that way.  It had taken us so long to rediscover.  Yet, it was better late than never.

We laughed.  We cried; ok I cried.  We labeled each other yet there was still just so much love and tenderness, connected in unspoken understanding.  Filled in invisible nuances of love.  We laughed even louder.  We let our naked souls to speak.  We were not ashamed.  We were not restricted.  And, we seriously and openly bared it all.  There was a complete exposure of our inner truths.

That same place, the same day of the week and same time where the scene of Entrapment took place about two months ago.  This time around, it was more profound.  We engaged in a marvelous ascension with honesty and integrity.  As you said KC, it was a reunion of soul mates.  We poured our hearty laughter accepting, and recognizing, our S-Factor that separated us from our peers.  It was such a beautiful symphony glowed with so much emotions.  Conducted in a divine orchestra with interdimensional attributes where so much intuitive energies were revealed.

We tied-up our loose ends.  We deserved to hear each other, one after another, and fitted into a balanced system.  Everything said and done with profound acts of love.  I was swamped with so much admiration.  The two of you brought upon your lights that sailed the night with an ascended vibration that fitted in very well for the three of us to see things better.  To sense the beauty of a reason to live.  It was a journey home of yin and yang, the dark and the light.

I felt honoured to be part of the big thing. 

The light house, and the divine life uniquely owned within the two of you, comforted the thought of death and my spiritual demise.  We made our transition and untangled all emotions that had been placed into our fabrics of life.  We laid and opened each others' path and formed yet another sacred geometry to our friendship.  Surely, it was not just a coincidence that had taken place that night, for opening a quest to our journey home vivid with the sacredness of free choice.  It was, as though, God was sitting amongst us that night giving little vignette and tiny snapshot of what will happen next.  What He did was to pour consciousness in our drinks and provided the energy of organization and form in such a peaceful and understanding veil of the evening.  Each one of you ascended to be an angelic being and wise teachers.

The lessons revealed within were truly revolutionary to our common way of thinking.  Our willingness to share, and the marvelous mindful of simple spiritual truths and insights of these two friends, have the power to change my life forever.

There was, and will be, just so much more to life as we unveiled our personal secrets.  The night just glowed.  A bright light was being lit.  In the invisible and silent entities of angels around, a choir sang a song that could be heard all over the universe.  What remained, three individuals were awakened.  A life would remain on this earth only this time to continue the journey.

The Journey Home

It has to be a journey, so we committed, a sacred one yet staple to the way things work.  We know that we will be walking through challenges, the drama, the difficulties, the denials, the lies but it would be a journey of divine consciousness.  It would be home with the potential of a perfect walk with God.  A brisk one with no ending.  Whatever life gives us, we shall take our light and transform it into what serves us and those around us.

My Gratitude

Now I know why you cried so much on The Journey Home, KC.  That Saturday oscillated our past and future and provided spiritual enlightenment of the changes we are facing.  Of knowing that God resides within us and that we are an eternal part of His universal plan.  Indeed, you were touched by His light.

I pray for you, M.  For that masterhood that is within you.  Your spiritual enlightenment is not about following any human being but the light within you.  You just have to passion play the consciousness.  Stay in your own integrity and don't look to others to define your beliefs.  The truth is that your divinity is within you.

I knew we went home knowing each one of us was sending blessings to one another.  Thank You for a night of honor, logic and divine purpose.  Thank You for the grace of your existence in my life.  Thank You for the essence of God which drives all (our) creation.  Thank You for being my brother and sister during the frontline of my battle.

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It is just a natural process.  It is just the nature of human mind.  It is just how many of us behave, or may want to act and function.  We seem to be trained, at our early age, to identify what we cannot have/afford/own/...... [fill in your own blank] - nor there would be a dire need, and decide we must have it regardless of what we have to do to get it.  As much as we want to be realisitic, our common sense often fails us.  Somehow, we always manage to get it in our heads that we have to have whatever "things" to make our lives easier.  Never mind the fact that, even if we could get it, it will just sit in a corner collecting dust until we finally give it away or throw it out.

Is that so?  Is it that hard?  Is it easy for us to fall victim of our own prey?

We are, often, never happy with what we have.  Be it a material gain or an intangible material force.  Off what we have already come into possession or use of.  We have been programmed to believe that more is better.  We make our lives busy, ignorant of our frustrations and limitations, to chase dreams that we have lost touch with the reality of what we already have.  We conveniently choose not to live life in contentment with any acquired possession.  We want to be happy but, it seems that,  we do not strive to live in its essence long.

When we have money, no matter how much, we always want more.  When we have reached a goal, we have nothing but set and work for another.  We use a gain of successes to achieve happiness, and a degree of peace, which in fact is an emotion and not a success.   Guess, the saying "The heart of an old man remains young in two respects, i.e. his love for the world and his incessant hope" stays true.  We no longer believe that being happy with our lives is enough.

The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.  We, unconsciously - perhaps, conveniently refuse, not look at what we have but at what we don't.  Instead of counting our own blessings, we count those of our neighbours.  Of our brothers and sisters.  Of our friends.  Of our colleagues.  Status, in society, appears to come with obtaining as much as we can get.

Our biggest problem with wanting what we cannot have is that we do not enjoy today.  We disregard the NOW and not living in our Present.  When tomorrow comes and we have gotten what we wanted yesterday, we will still not be happy because we want what we do not have that day as well.  It is just a vicious circle.  As soon as we have fulfilled one want, it is replaced by another.  We continuously looking backward thinking, at a very subtle consciousness, about the unhappiness and lack of satisfaction that filled our days.

We are often just ignorant as how to sustain an achievement.  To momentarily pause and keep in existence to enjoy.  To smell the rose a little longer and what it feels like to smell such a blossom.  To take stock of the positive of our own life with delightful invitation to further experience the bliss.  To be satisfied and then lessen our 'suffering' from insatiable desires.  To measure satisfaction by each breath, by smiles and laughter.  By lending a hand in need or teaching others.

There is nothing wrong to soar up the sky and lift our hopes high - and it should be encouraged.  Motivation is an evolution.  Acquiring new things is the real essence of progress.  We should look outside the box and explore more of ourselves to see if we are better at something else than what we are currently doing.  Our common sense should be our ally to dictate what we can and cannot afford.  Our conscience should guide us to what is sufficient and appreciate what is lacking.

Freedom and fulfillment of our soul take, to many of us, a lifetime to build.  Changing the dynamics of our mind require time, patience and a willingness to do things differently.  It takes our consciousness to become fully aware that will change the paradigm.

The key is in how we approach the acquisition of new things.  Planning and deligence are called for to enrich our lives.  We should not make things too easy to get new things without expending any effort.  Balance is what is needed.

I have lived a life in search for meaning.  For the purpose of life to be a life of purpose.  To lessen struggles to find what relevance there is to my existence.  To lay a claim to possess a greater understanding.  The miracle is not to fly in the air, or to walk on the water, but to walk on earth.

I have no special talent nor do I claim to possess any special powers beyond those of a mortal man.  But, I have lived my life facing trials and experienced great joys.  I was born into this world with nothing and zero possessions and very little ability to communicate with anyone.

Many spiritual roads and modalities were brought to my attention.  Each guarantees to embrace my being with peace.  To walk a journey filled with enlightenment and oneness with the universe.  I would receive emails almost every week informing me of another 'new knowledge'.

A life without cause is a life without effect and that we must upgrade our life everyday.  We need to think of the benefits to fulfill our goals.  Each day is precious but it is how we would want to spend it that will make the difference.  Each and every moment in our life is for us to enjoy.  To be in happiness.  To be in peace.  Balance and harmony.

Should I forget to tell myself that one of the most important things in life is to be happy and to treat anything else that comes my way as a bonus, I would be searching the purpose endlessly.  Life is a great big canvas and I should throw all the paints on it.  But I have a choice.

Do I want to paint it all at once or do I want to spend an entire lifetime for a single imprint?  I cannot discover the purpose of life should I not spend time to reflect.  To constantly reflect upon what that I have painted, or done, is placing blessings to a life that is already filled with happiness.  To a life that is joyful.

Abundance will not multiply when there is no gratitude.  Another desire will not keep us at peace when we are not going to [learn to] appreciate.  A discrepancy will always be a conscious thought when we cannot accept between what we have and what we should have.

I learn to take a break from the constant upgrade cycle to take time to enjoy what I have now.  I remember the first time I wanted to upgrade my desktop computer.  I visualised a 'perfect' system.  I knew how much I wanted it to be.  I knew how much money I needed and planned out the ways I could earn enough to own it.  When I finally had it, the desktop computer was infinitely more meaningful to me when I had put so much effort into acquiring it.

I remember the first time my Spiritual Master wanted his students to take charge of all his teachings and to organize a seminar.  To him, it was the only way for us to learn.  To put what we thought we had acquired into conviction.  I learned to appreciate.  That was the only way I will ever get it right, of the things I possessed at that time, by asking and practicing it myself.

I will always want to remember to discover the purpose of life by asking myself.  Life is like a coin.  I can spend it in any way I wish but I only can spend it once.  The only thing that guarantees my success - peace, joy and happiness, is when I take my time to enjoy the things I acquire a little longer.  It is discovering in the quality that quantifies the harvest.

It is not us who are never satisfied, it is the nature of the human mind to be never satisfied for very long.  We always seem to choose to want more.  To be something else.  To go beyond.  Question is, are we going to slip our consciousness into a perpetual slavery?  Are we going to disregard awareness to risk a flowering season without even enjoying its fruits?

Rules For Being Human:

Rules For Being Human

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The first time I heard this invocating music, without knowing the essence of the song title (and my gratitude and appreciation to Pi), my tears just rolled.  Perhaps, then I was in search of a process to heal myself.  Perhaps, then I was manifesting for higher vibratory energy.

"Returning To Now" is an apt music weaving exotic voices and cross-cultural elements that perfected a balance point in my consciousness.  The song title is self explanatory.  A story written in the CD album:

A student came across a sage in the forest.

"Let us share some tea" said the wise elder.  And as they sat together, he began pouring.  Between rapid-fire questions, the student began to notice that his cup had filled and yet the sage continued pouring, threatening to soak his robes.

"Why do you keep pouring when my cup and saucer are full?" inquired the student.

Came the reply, "Why keep asking questions when your head is full?"

The first time I heard it, my heart, in the world of its own consciousness, released thought energies that liberated through the sacred sounds of the music; in its pitch, frequency and keynote, the world of illusions.  It amplified an energy of emotions in varied different states of consciousness to create resonance with specific attributes of divine energy.  It manifested different qualities from resonating my chakras to embodying compassion.

I may not exactly know the words but I was certain my Higher Self recognized this sacred sound.  It was a feeling, undoubtedly, at any given moment, the divine energy from which the universe and all of creation first manifested - it was the totality of all other sounds to me - related to the vital transformational energy to shift and changed that which had been created and preserved.

I sensed the tunnel of light that brought me to earth.  The cord of a birth vision, the creator and the creational process.  That beyond the mental and astral planes, it was the very essence of my existence.  The deep and powerful sound of the bass represents, in my consciousness, the different aspects of the trinity of my body, my speech and my mind.  It developed a simplified processing alternative.

This is one piece of music, at this point of my life, being played continuously during my Inner Dance meditation.  It just has the capabilities of resonating and aligning all my chakras - of cleansing imbalanced energies and purifying self.  It provides a bridge between my spiritual and physical dimensions and opening the way for inspirational contact with higher realms and beings.

The healing sound of the chimes symbolizes the supreme source, synonymous with the energy of peace.  It initiates peace and tranquility when it is listened to.

The healing sound of the tibetan bowl generates compassion.  Of a consciousness allowing people to attune and resonate with each other.

The healing sound of the bell triggers mystical path to the highest vibratory transcendence.  It is a feeling to God realization and enlightenment.  It opens a wide consciousness to the words, the sounds of animals, the wind in the trees, the rushing of water, the beat of my heart that it is everywhere, in every plane.

The healing sound of the sitar creates extraordinary energy for balance and clearing.  It is extremely powerful and transformative.

Interestingly, as I often experienced an elevated state of consciousness with this healing sacred music, it is only right that I should share it with others.  Particularly those with specific intention towards healing to bring the energy of the people together.  To use to assist in planetary healing.  To assist the creation of peace and harmony on earth.

How To Listen To the Music:

Find a quiet place.
Create your intention.
Sit or lie relax and 'Just Be' in your moment.  Be in The Now.

Play the music a little louder as to fill the room/space.
Project your intention as the music is played.
Keep the music in repetitive mode.  Play it throughout the meditation.

The Gift:

By itself, this music has its own extraordinary divine resonance.  It has the formula of both vocalization and visualization.  The rewards for manifestation.

You can project upon all the sounds, within this healing music, to amplify and making even more extraordinary for yourself the great healing gifts it can bring.

Returning To Now

Karunesh

About The Musician:

Karunesh, a German born NewAge and Ambient Musician

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03 October 1987:  22 years ago, on this date, we decided on a journey.  It was a day where we took the choice to end the pursuit to happiness in life and making it a reality.  It became the beginning.  The birth of a shared vision to bring in the true nature of life to grow.  It is in our human nature to bond with another and, in the words of Aristotle, "Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence".  We ended our ignorance and preoccupied our wants for matters of great importance.  Of a better quality of life that will bring us to the grave.

We deliberately, at our conscious level, sought out happiness within and never allowed to think it was just as an external acquisition.  Perhaps, we are soul mate and even if that was so, we learned to savour and appreciated the basic pleasures being a companion to each other.  For soul mates to survive, it must be mixed with a different set of ingredients.  It needed the realization through experiences for knowledge.  For passion.  There must be a burning desire to ease each other out from confusion, from pain and from sufferings.  We learned to achieve our unique virtures and strengths and employed them to enhance our lives.  All, because we wanted to find a deep sense of fulfillment for that meaningful life.

It reminds me so much the writing of Morris L West in "A View From The Ridge" on being full human - the journey that we wanted to walk this life, side by side:

"It takes so much to be a full human being that there are very few who have the enlightenment or the courage to pay the price. One has to abandon altogether the search for security and reach out to the risk of living with both arms. One has to embrace the world like a lover. One has to accept pain as a condition of existence. One has to court doubt and darkness as the cost of knowing. One needs a will stubborn in conflict, but apt always to total acceptance of every consequence of living and dying."

I just love you because I do.  I can't change it.  I am thankful for all the patience and tolerance.  Above all, I am grateful that we desire to create mutual understanding to maintain peace and harmony.  To form a partnership of two individuals and that this partnership is enriched and enhanced when it allows our personalities involved to grow.

Indeed, we grew and developed gradually from understanding.  From true loyalty and not just sheer indulgence.  We provided a fine basis for development and taken delightful association, of two different individuals, to be nurtured.  To be free from loneliness and deprivation.  We strived to develop a complementary role, giving strength and moral courage to one another.  Each manifesting a supportive and appreciative recognition of the other's strengths and weaknesses in caring and providing for the quality of life we had been searching for.

I am in bliss with a partnership of equality.  Of gentleness.  Of generosity.  Of calm.  Of dedication.  Of pure sharing and trust.  Never that you asked how much you can get but how much you can give.  When my youth starts to fade away, you lay no emphasis but stayed true in your heart and mind, not in what you see.  Thank you for never neglecting me even in sickness.

We succeeded to stay true to the reality of wanting to be together.  Taken to harmonize our lives by minimizing whatever differences we may have between us.  To share all our pains and pleasures and consoling each other and minimized our grievances.  I am thankful that we have the strength to stay strong will power to reduce our burdens and misunderstandings.

John J Robinson, in his book "of Suchness" wrote:

"Somehow, when you find the right one, you know it in your heart. It is not just an infatuation of the moment. But the powerful urges of sex drive a young person headlong into blind acts and one cannot trust his feelings too much. This is especially true if one drinks and get befuddled; the lousiest slut in a dark bar can look like a Venus then, and her charms become irresistible. Love is much more than sex though; it is the biological foundation between a man and a woman; love and sex get all inter-twined and mixed up".

I am thankful that I just know that you are the right one.  And, I thank God that I met you not when I was drunk nor with a befuddled state of mind.

Today, I am praying for your health.  For peace within your heart and mind.  For all the joy that will always keep you company.

I am blessed to know, and have, you.  For the friendship, love, wisdom, joy, inner peace, wholeness, salvation, enlightenment.  A connection to the source of things.  And experience of the ground of being.

This is the song that used to accompany us:

Always

Atlantic Starr

.. and for the many more years ahead.

I just love you.

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One of the most important early renovation works is waterproofing.  Preventive considerations should begin with the planning of the house, even before renovation begins. 

Under HDB Rules and Technical Terms and Conditions for Building Works related to floor, it states:

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Waterproofing treated prepacked cement screed or waterproofing membrane must be used in bathroom/toilets areas before laying of new floor tiles. Membrane should be upturned (up to 150 mm) against the walls, kerbs and pipes. For kitchen, the waterproofing membrane is only required around the sanitary stacks for an area of a radius 400mm.

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Flat owner and registered renovation contractor are advised to conduct a water test to bath/toilet upon completing the replacement of floor finishes.

In many cases, homes are subject to more leaking because of the low grade materials used [cement or waterproofing membrane] and shoddy workmanship that caused these materials to contract away from the foundation wall.  Water accumulation, from showers and/or kitchen wash, causes long term moisture and create a tremendous pressure forcing it against the wall/floor.

An effective waterproofing is to ensure for long term durability, resilience, quality, strength and effective flooring solutions.  To avoid, or minimise, leaking problems - especially to our neighbour's ceilings staying a floor below, a good test must be carried out.  It is always good to run this test so that any immediate leakages [or sippage] can be rectified during the renovation period.

The waterproof stress test in Reiki Sanctuary:

Waterproof Stress Test in Kitchen

Water proofing kitchen - View to Living Room

Water proofing kitchen

Waterproof Stress Test in Common Toilet

Water proofing common toilet

Waterproof Stress Test in MBR Toilet

Water proofing MBR toilet

Our ID and general contractor were on a 48 hours full stand-by during this period.  Our neighbour [downstairs] was informed of the procedure.  A check on their ceilings was also carried out before our stess test.

There should not be any other renovation works during the waterproof test in the house.

A good waterproofing test lasts for 48 hours, or more.  48 hours is a comfortable industry stress period and indicates the value of waterproofing materials that can last a long time and the contractor's workmanship.-

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Life, for the past three weeks, has been somewhat different.  Three weeks ago, I decided on a decision to meet someone whom I felt that I owed him a respect.  Of someone whom I had used his gift, since July, to expand my consciousness.  The transformation that I had, instantly, felt the day I started his Inner Dance.

I am glad to meet Pi Villaraza when he was in Singapore.  And, subsequently, one private session and the few other group workshops.

I am now walking through time breaking free of the bonds that tie me of fears, validation and anxieties to insufficiency and lack.  When all the external conditions remain the same - the air is there, all around and so is the vastness of consciousness that adds on another experiences of daily life, yet a subtle sense of life force springs awake.  It is a withdrawal feeling of sort.  Of a separation to dose dependent of old thoughts and actions.  Of alienation washing away deepest tensions and eliminating misunderstandings of true nature to expand with the flow of creative energy and consciousness within.

The gap between what I used to think and how I used to feel draws closer.  Inching to draw nearer synonymous immortality.  What I used to think that is outside me is now an internal consciousness.  God is no longer just an image outside my mind, body and soul but so much alive in God-consciousness in every of my cells.  When I think of joy, my heart renders an intensed energy.  When I think of love, a gush of forgiveness and acceptance radiates a healing green energy of empowerment.  Joy, inasmuch an experience of consciousness with our surrounding, capsulize the feeling into a state of mind.  Into oneness in a state of existent actuality.  In this consciousness, there is bliss and there is light in which these thoughts, feelings and sensations shine and responses happen.  So are the energy of peace.  Of love.  Of sorrow and sadness.  Of freedom.  Of earth and heaven.  My soul expands in the mastery of awareness freeing myself from the laws of form.  I have become more aware of almost every energy.  In Mahatma Gandhi's wisdom, "When I admire the wonders of a sunset, my soul expands in the worship of the creator".  The characteristics of the universe has no separation, no change of integrity nor any acts of dividing or disconnecting.  There is no beginning and end.  All that is outside is inside is outside.

Inner Dance is an ocean of laughter and crying.  Of light and darkness.  Of fire and water.  Of earth and heaven.  Of yin and yang.  Of one and oneness.  It has taken me into a higher state of alertness.  It opens all consciousness within.  I am pretty much aware of my heartbeat, my breath and most of my thoughts in my mind.  Of the events around me.  Of the people I come into contact with.  Of words.  Of actions.  I can smell the air as much as the grass.  All these scents, and sensitivities, of which I had taken them for granted suddenly seemed like a wondrous treat.  Life, and to those who knew it, is so beautiful.

I started Inner Dance on the eve of Ruby's one hundred days on June 27.  In my previous entry, Since You've Been Gone - The 100 Days, I wrote my thoughts that now have become, somewhat, the fruits of labour of a singular blend of a larger tapestry of understanding.  Of new process to connect a common question 'Why am I in this life?' and providing answers and clarity that I have been searching for.

The following excerpt, taken from that entry, gives forth a clear resonant where nothing [in life] is a coincidence.  The thought that was written rings true for synchronicity to take place.  Inner Dance accelerates the process.

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I was moved to go for a healing workshop - an Inner Dance yesterday.  There was a subtle force to bring me there.  Perhaps, you had observed for all conditions to be favorable for me and opened the path to walk my life ahead significantly.  Throughout the whole session, not only that I felt the presence of light around, there was a constant voice - through the people around.  The message kept repeating from the beginning to the end of the session.

"In the pursuit of peace and the joy that we seek in life, we cannot be pulled by people who choose - either consciously or unconsciously, to drag away our growth with them.  When time had been given, with all the intention to move forward in ONE consciousness, we have to leave those that are not nested in the multidimensional realities for our next waves of energy."

Today, you are now breaking it out and put forward, carrying everything in its right path.  You are teaching me that peace of mind comes from not wanting to change others but by simply accepting them as they are.  True acceptance is always without demands and expectations.  The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white.  Neither need me to do anything but be myself.

All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.  A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.  Whatever I can do or dream I can, begin it.  Boldness has genius, magic and power in it.  Begin it now.

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Inner Dance is not a dance.  There is no modus operandi about it.  Nor it is a dance owned by an individual or an institution, though respect has to be given to Pi Villaraza.  Pi is a highly realized and evolved individual who found Inner Dance.  It is a movement from within - the soul's inner energy that has been awakened.  It is a powerful healing transformational vibration of trust, hope and joy within, from Mother Earth and in the Universe. It weaves threads of pure love for us to receive and give, and healing whatever needs to be healed, restoring balance and harmony.  Inner Dance is a teacher of souls; a gift to guide us through life for its meaning ever deepening, ever expanding.

My personal experience with Inner Dance is a powerful spiritual invocation of faith and free grace.  It is a movement from within that sets my kundalini free.  The very first time I allowed this inward energy to move - fuelled an involuntary bodily movements, and to take control of my soul, I felt comforting heat moving through my lower chakras and filled throughout the fire serpent, and later redirected and refined all the way up to the crown.  The heat released some form of a blissful energy; an indescribable and wordless state of awareness of the inherent perfection and divinity in everything, including my own life.  It got to a state where thinking was not required, words and actions are spontaneous and perfect.

It was, probably, "Self Realization" unified myself with all that is and a personal development process of becoming uniquely my Self.  Of a realization to know myself and loving my own unique individuality.

Everyday, the movements engaged in Inner Dance are different.  It can be gentle and slow movements of the whole body today and yet a faster rhythmic movement the next day.  There is always a symbolic spark with each move, not only all these dances unfolding a lightness and joyful qualities overall but also of healing the soul.  The symbolism goes further with time.  Where there is a need for healing, within the body, the movements are directed towards that area intensively.  Consciously, as these movements are engaged, without the limits and instructions of the analytical mind, it eases the different aspects of life within.  All of the physical, emotional, mental and spiritual bodies are delicately healed to the subtleties with Inner Dance movements.

There is always the magical involuntarily movement.  It is guided from a higher consciousness with great intelligence and wisdom.  These movements cannot be directed.  I have been experimenting a mechanism to move my hand, or my body, in a certain position but it often directs me otherwise.  The inner energy, from the dance, magnetizes a very uplifting effect on my whole body, mind and nature with great liberating healing effect.  It awakens a divine spark within us.

Further Read:

About Pi Villaraza on Ascension
Inner Dance - Article from Town And Country Magazine [Philippine Edition, Aug Issue]

Inner Dance Music

The Inner Dance Experience

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Ah, and so you think so?  And, do you still want to think so?

I think everyone knows, and wants to believe, that: A simple thing is not that simple after all.  That, in all the simplest thing that another simplest casts for yet another not-so-simple act or decision.  The endless chain reaction of an energy breaking the completeness of another to form parts of an ultimate choice.  The division of freewill that loves life till it breaks itself.

We know what is needed is an end to all our untrammeled greed.  Only until we are consciously aware of its presence that it surrenders.  Of unlimited freedom to end up with our unlimited struggles.  Of dominance.  Of mastery. Of monopoly.  The environment around us, somehow, is much more important than accomplishing the simplest thing.  What we can do, one that we owe it to ourselves, is define what 'enough' means and then live it.  It does not mean living in deprivation or unplugging everything.  We should not let our other voices nattering sales pitches telling us that we are inadequate unless we do certain actions.  Or we buy certain products.  Or we need to fulfill certain conditions.

A soul rich with meaningful and significant sense of BEing is when we achieve sufficiency.  And, discovering what life can be when it is not about having more stuff.  Or, perpetually on a continuous search finding for the best, if any.  Of choosing for real satisfaction instead of the empty satisfaction of mindless acquisition.

Life is all that simple until we become the slave of our analytical mind.  Of insatiable choices, coupled with all our past life experiences,  to ultimately choose (or reject) everything regardless of any internal or external conditions relating to the choice.  It has always based on a free and personal choice between now and the future.

What separates us with the future is in honouring the act of NOW.  A nowist in his nowness stays to experience the fruit of his decision.  Or a decision he hears from the [god's] voice of another person.  He nurtures the choice expanding every possible ways to get the best from it.  Enriching it with experiential experiments and nourishing it with compassion.  He embraces the BEing and trusting his own strength, knowledge and wisdom.  Consequently, he is not saddled with simplicity and fountainhead in choices.

When simple things are not preserved, everything that happens concurs with an act's effects and promises in which all the uncertainty lies.  Struggle and confusion cooperates inasmuch to hinder everything for its welfare and growth.  The mind voids of all power to think, to will or to do any good thing.  We are a step back into procrastination and rendered a spiritual death from a state of faith and grace.

Look back at how we often not act when there is a simple thought asking ask to do certain things.  A simple decision that is able to will and to do what is good. We tend not to act on the source, honouring the blameless sight, but caught in the corruption for what-ifs.  Self determination, which is often regarded as god consciousness within us, is incoherent.  We tend to think that there is a choice better than other choices; or an action that still lacks sufficient causes.

It should not be thought that this view completely denies the freedom of choice.  While we are free to act on our strongest moral impulse and volition, a reconciliation of dual concepts of predestination points to the situation for simplicity.  Everything happens for a good reason and we just have to believe that it is so.  Everything that happens has a necessary element in the process. 

Some things that happen can appear to have no meaning or purpose.  We may be loss to understand how war, hunger, natural disasters and human sufferings can possibly have any meaning and why these things happen.  It is our limited perspective, especially when we believe our perspective to be the absolute truth, is not able to fully comprehend the meaning of individual things and events in the context of the whole.  What we perceive is only an aspect of a tiny little part of the whole.  Everything that happens, good or bad, has only one real purpose.  It is to provide us with an opportunity to learn and an opportunity to teach; and all these opportunities point us to do good and to be of humble service to life itself.

We exist in an evolutionary exercise for our consciousness to grow and owe it to be of service to it.  When we understand our purpose to be that of allowing good to come into the world, of being of service to consciousness, everything that happens in our life is seen as a potential means of the beginning and end of higher consciousness.  The everyday tasks and choices that we are faced are simple until we make them hard.

When things do happen and when new situations are brought about or if something goes 'wrong', acting on the simplest thing as they come is an opening for a higher consciousness to flow into and influence us into that situation.  More important than any action is the state out of which that action, or non-action, arises.

When we just want to sit on a park bench in a state of peace and presence for the whole day, doing nothing, accomplishes more in the service of consciousness than years of actions and efforts.  To see the purpose of all things simple fulfill the purpose of our BEing, nothing spectacular needs to be done.  The only thing we need to be concerned with is to meet every situation and every moment in a state of alert presence.  We do not need to do anything (but just act) in particular, and we do not even need to figure anything out.  The key is absolute surrender and the struggles and internal conflicts will just disappear.

The simple truth is, every situation is an opportunity.  We just have to allow simplicity to act on it immediately and not to question its existence.  However difficult it is for the ego to accept, and however it is out of alignment with the common views of society, we need to respond to everything with unconditional love.  Even when it does not seem, at that moment, to make any sense to do so.  Our ego would encourage us to procrastinate, to defend and fight back and respond with negativity.

Every desires to do certain things, to achieve certain results for a higher consciousness is for the extension of love and kindness.  Of faith and grace.  Of forgiveness.  Of a soul to heal.  To see the purpose behind everything that happens, it is required to go beyond the limits of our mind.  Our mind will usually tell us that it is ridiculous that there is a purpose for all the terrible things that happened and that this is much to simple to be true.

All things are simple.  They are just an energy filled with quality of love.  To know the truth of this is in the realm of a deeper knowing and banish all our doubts and fears.  F.E.A.R. is, after all, an energy of False Experience/Experiments Appearing Real.  When simple things are not that simple, a recognition that is stronger than any words can contain,  would we rather be 'right' than at peace?

For the purpose of everything to be fulfilled, to act on every [simple] choice, the only thing required is for us to surrender and allow life to flow through to accomplish what it will.

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