I have walked a life, like many others, rest satisfied with doing well and to leave others to talk of me as they will. To expect my best; convert problems into opportunities and be dissatisfied with the status quo. To focus on where I want to go, instead of where I was coming from. Most importantly, decide to be happy, knowing that it is an attitude - a habit, gained in purely spiritual matters and not a result or payoff.
The year 2009 is a song year that sings life into my cells. Of love that unites living beings so as to complete and fulfill my soul. For love developing until it embraces the totality of my physical, emotional, spiritual and mental and of the earth.
Somewhere, deep down inside me, in the place beyond all thoughts, I have surrendered. The greatness of divinity is sufficient, in each and every moment, to make the impossible possible and setting my higher self within mobilised. In all the blackness of grief to the joy of love, which is interchangeable, the divine grace has taken me by my hand to walk with confidence into the unknown. Whatever each moment will look like, the faith to take heart of the truth and happiness will get me in the end.
My grief from the departure of beloved Ruby is the breaking of the shell that encloses my understanding. And for my heart to sing, and my spirit to fly. Not because she has been forgotten. I am not to dwell on the past but to use it to illustrate a point. From this moment onward, I can be an entirely different person, filled with love and understanding, ready with an outstretched hand, uplifted and positive in every thought and deed. It is for my own creation to make me stronger, wiser, more loving and resourceful. There is just so much for us to use of nature's way. We just have to take the time to hear and see that which is close at hand. It is said that no soul that aspires can ever fail to rise; no heart that loves can ever be abandoned.
You are loved because I love you. I am loved because love can never be abandoned. From this moment onward, the only way to deal with the future is to function efficiently in the Now. This is the gift of change. When I desire a change, I must be that change before that change can take place.
Today I will be like a very small joyous child living gloriously in the ever present Now without a single worry or concern about even the next moment of time. As I simplify my life hereon, the laws of the universe will be simpler. Solitude will not be solitude. Poverty will not be poverty. Nor weakness weakness.
I pray for blessings. I am setting my sights high, and the higher the better. I manifest for the most wonderful things to happen. No longer will it be, in this Now, that the swan is standing with wings but a swan in full flight.
I must accept that there is no separation between my soul and love. Between me and the Universe. In all the beauty of life, there can be no real lack or scarcity. There is nothing that we have to try to achieve or attract. When there is love, we contain the potential - the divine expressions of the creative principle, for everything within us. If I should learn the secret of right relations, I only have to look for the divine in people and things.
Today is a day filled with atrium of a new life. Filled with the fire of transformation. I am blessed. I bless the day I find you. In the words of Kahlil Gibran in 'The Prophet',
"When love beckons to you, follow him. Though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you, yield to him. Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you, believe in him. Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; for love is sufficient unto love.
Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."
Everything that is needed has appeared in the right place at the right time. This is the beginning for a higher soul awareness and joyous soul healing. I should stride forward with a firm, steady step knowing with a deep, certain inner knowing. That I will reach every goals that I set myself.
I have been given to share the gifts of the Universe. I know that I want it. I thank God that He let me.
... and it is all because I love you ....
[Dedicating to all the Indigo Souls]
I am blessed to meet, and to walk my life journey, with 'new children' around me. These children that were born since late 1970s with high sensitivity, huge treasure chest of awareness and psychic abilities. They are uniquely gifted and display an intrigue character traits, qualities and ways of behaviour. The aura of these children is completely different and predominantly indigo. These 'indigo' children are old souls and much wiser than their years. Often, they are so far ahead of their parents or teachers that communication can break down.
They are here to heal the world and to open humanity to new ways of living and new worlds of opportunity. To provide us with the great shifting of consciousness. To make possible sadness turned to pure joy. To transform our highest authority that lies within and brings a direct connection to divinity and higher consciousness.
I have met a three year old girl spoke a wealth of practical words to her elder sister:
"Crying won't make you full. You either stop crying or start eating."
"I do not know the word yet but God takes care of everything."
"Why pray for small things when we can ask for more?"
I have met an eighteen year old guy who would, willingly, sacrifice his school pocket money to charity. In his words, "they need it more than I do".
I have met a twenty-five year old guy re-connecting and re-membering with his 'past' during a Reiki session. Where he found profound insights concerning peace and love and their connections to nature. A phrase that he used after the Reiki initiation, 'The Joy Of Love' made me to remember the notes that I had written down, many years ago, in my sacred book:
The Joy Of Love
[Source Unknown]
Joy, as the energy of love, is one of the highest vibrations on this planet. According to the universal Law of Attraction, as we think and feel we vibrate. And as we vibrate, we attract. When we vibrate with joy and love, we attract what is for our greater good.
The experience of joy can:
* strengthen your immune system.
* regenerate your whole physical system.
* burn away the impurities in your emotional system.
* disperse worries, anxieties, grief, greed, irritation and other negative emotions.
* sharpen your intellect and strengthen your memory.
* clarify and balance your mind.
* expand your consciousness and understanding.
* open you to receive higher impressions, inspirations, and transforming energies.
It is these children, and many of them who have become adults today, that will change our way of life. Our way of thinking. That will raise our vibrations. That will instill fascinating insights into our lives. They are born with highly developed sixth sense abilities and their spiritual healing will only lead us to a magical world that we live in.
Thank You for being part of me. Thank You for crossing into my path.
It is often hard, and I have to learn to overcome, to share the feeling with someone about the passing off of their loved one. A feeling that comes naturally when I am invited to pray, especially for the departed soul, is in critical stage. Often, this feeling is guided with a higher intuition that can just come from nowhere; a message that will tell me the end of a 'nadi' timeline. A time to let go and go home. A time to walk into the white light and embracing another life beyond the white bridge.
Over many years, I stand still in between two worlds. On one side with the gripping fear of a departing earthly being and in another, the joy for reunion. I often see a gathering of souls - the earthly and the spirits, negotiating for some sort of a Higher Plan while the Angels of Death play the intermediary role.
Two weeks ago when I was in Pattaya, two friends wanted me to feel the energy of the mother of their thai friend. I had never met this lady nor did I know of her health condition. I was only informed that she had been very sick and once warded in ICU. The conversation made me to pass a remark that she would soon leave this earthly plane. At that time, I caught a message '1' and '6' and didn't want to share much of their significance. Only to mention that she would probably have six nadi weeks left, which was said to ease the situation.
Today, my prayer lends comforting condolences to Nattawat on the demise of his beloved mother. Yesterday, I was informed that she had a relapse and today in another email, peacefully, passed on later that night. I believe it is on the early 16.
I should be more vocal then. I should just let them know of the message '16' and how was the message meant to be passed on. I just didn't want to play God; instilling fears and anxieties and we should never play one! What we can do is just to take the message and be prepared. To let love grow and for us to take the opportunity to bask in its importance.
This morning as I wrote an email to another friend for Nattawat, I wrote "Yes, I feel his mother is ready to go but you don't have to tell him ..". At the point, I was not informed of the demise. For all the messages that I wanted him to whisper into his mother's ears shall now become my prayer for the two of them. For his loving mother that meant so much to him and for Nattawat to find courage to live on.
I have always regarded a blog is our voice to the Universe, between Heaven and Earth. Let the message, that was meant to be shared to her, echoes here:
"You have been a wonderful mother taking care of me. That have protected me. I am very thankful for all that you had done. To bring love into my life. I will recognise it and will let it shine inside me. I have become a better person with your love and guidance. I promise to take care of myself and to be with Buddha where I truly belong.
You have been a good wife and a good mother to all your children. Be at peace. There is nothing greater than the love of Buddha for you now. There is nothing else you need to do, your job is done. We have to feel your love and to live with it to make us a better person here. Feel the light that is all around you. It will ease your earthly pain. Just be with the light and everything will be taken care."
May you now rest in peace.
With the new waves of energy built around us - and for the New World Order to prevail, we tend to go through a subtle feeling of suffering from a feeling of incompleteness. We feel a certain heaviness in the heart that we cannot barely explain. We feel inadequate even after we found the strength to move on. Even after we completed our prayers. Our feelings become unreliable and our mind deluded. Yet, we just cannot exactly pinpoint the flaws nor are we able to re-direct the energy elsewhere.
We think that we are being surrounded by things that bring the feelings of insecurity and unhappiness. We experience feelings that feel uncomfortable, habitual and overwhelming. Often, these feelings do not resolve easily. They create an imbalance and leave us handicapped on so many levels.
This feeling of incompleteness, which has nothing to do with our mental, emotional or intellectual level, is something almost imperceptible that affects subtlety the being in its fullness. It is about the search for self realization. Of overcoming the self for a higher recognition of the Higher Self. For a true identity of higher consciousness.
We may find that we have to struggle in order to be more conscious. Despite all the wonderful benefits close at our hands, we still find ourselves fighting what seems at times a tedious and uphill battle.
Many individuals are now affected by this strange feeling that lack something to be happy. And, the wait for something to happen so that all the difficult time is eliminated to finally breathe a little more and to continue living in a satisfactory manner. There will be explosive catalyst to renew erosive activity, the results directly related to the capacity we have led in our life with our conditioned habits. Somehow, our habits are always a circle in the sand going round and round and will almost always win. Somehow, it is not a question of sincerity either.
Human beings, all of us, live a life to make contact with our higher consciousness with its thrilling insight and inner power. Endeavouring to shape a new life, in one way or another. Striving to become the new person every day. We adopt courage to expel the empire of selfishness and noteworthy to the incessant search for peace. Especially the interior, because without it, there is no peace anywhere in relationships with others.
What will then prevail? The sense of incompleteness is not exclusive and inherent since we are always in search of something for ourselves and our existence. It is the way we habitually think and feel, and without such demand, its existence would make no sense whatsoever.
In incompleteness, we must value our commitment to our new visions, dreams and goals. We must sincerely make commitments to ourselves. We must not feel weak-willed nor are we convinced that our sincerity is most ingenuine. But good intentions are not enough. The more we now want to search for material knowledge, and the more we try to find it out, most of it will just move away; it will never make where we want to be.
We are now living in a dynamic multidimensional world where duality often leads us to fail or give up. What needs to be understood, ultimately, is that the feeling of incompleteness does not show any link with any scheme or logical, but is closely linked to the awareness that to achieve it. It is necessary for us to shift our mind paradigm to change focus. There is no possibility of achieving fullness of any kind, as for the cycle to end there must be delivery, calm, tolerance, positivism and tranquility with respect to both our thoughts and attitudes.
We need to move forward. To live a shambhala life and to raise our consciousness to new heights of possibilities. To be a doer and acting on all experiences and, no longer, a thinker. We need to overcome old habits and to allow our higher consciousness to overflow the banks of our old riverbeds of habits to seek new directions. The seeker of higher consciousness and fulfillment must create new tendencies. To complete the feeling of incompleteness, we must be willing to not only think about new possibilities but to redirect the flow of our thoughts and feelings - the flow of our life force, into new tendencies and habits of living.
We need to apply our thoughts and feelings with actions for true tendency of a whole being. Intellectual understanding for higher consciousness requires more than just the wisdom of the mind. Surrendering to feel into the core of our feelings; bringing all the awareness and to focus on the innermost intense part of the energy of the emotion, is part of the full completion. Acting, and giving co-operation, to our thoughts and feelings is vehicle but not a full cycle of the harmony to create comfort.
We need to open our life force; the kundalini life support with physical energy. For it to vibrate with the new multidimensional energy. For our life force to sustain brilliant higher consciousness.
We need to remodel our vitality level and improve its function. We need to engage our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies with energy action pack to change the course of our kundalini life support. These energy works are to set the motion for our new DNA code and to release us from the feeling of incompleteness.
As these are forged consciously and with our whole being, we shall feel the divine existence of our purpose. We will feel the wind that rustle the leaves and acknowledge its relevance. We will feel the rays of the sun and bask in its warmth. We feel the love that abounds us and acknowledge its importance.
From this place, we will notice a feeling of peacefulness, nothingness and calmness. We will be in a place of unlimited possibility and pure awareness.
Just the other day, as a friend showed me his Facebook - the most used social networking website, an unnerving feeling just swamped me. The intrigue of an intertwined social cohesion that fascinates me otherwise. I was made to capture the attention of another consequence. Of a smaller world. Of who knows who. Of an interactive communication, good or bad, amongst circle of friends.
With Facebook, users choose who are their friends based on their interests to connect and interact. They share information and, willingly, inform their friends of their whereabouts and actions. While there is always the joy to share ideas, social information and circles of friends - and there is nothing wrong with that, with the chosen few in the loop of their daily happenings, the acts bring back memories of my past.
Who knows, who cares? I expect a decree of respect when a Facebook user adds another to serve the same purpose to form a community. I consider for reasonable quality and condition formed into a state involving mutual dealings amongst them. That their interests are homogenous and affecting common determinants for social enactment and awareness.
As my friend shared who knows who in his group, I wonder at the level of prevailing superficiality. And, how shallowness is apparent. A user whom he had resentment in the past, and whom he has no total trust today, is part of the group. This user is allowed information sharing and participation.
As if by a great blow, the memory where I chose to 'go up the mountain' puts me back into a past condition. There is a sudden strong feeling for sincerity. For embodiment of emotions that is simple. For a chance at nirvana.
I need friends for many reasons. For them to comfort me when I am sad and to laugh with when I am glad. For them to give me advise and whom I can count on. For them to help me solve my troubles and to share good times so the joy is doubled.
I need friends for a mutual desire for companionship, and perhaps a common bond of some kind. For a shared sense of caring and concern, a desire to see one another grow and develop and a hope for each other to succeed in all aspects of life. To share thoughts and feelings without fear of judgement or negative criticism.
I need friends that I can spend time with - time to get to know each other, time to build shared memories, time to invest in each other's growth.
I need friends whom I can share my lives, thoughts, feelings and frustrations. Friends that I can share my deepest secrets without worrying that those secrets will end up on the internet the next day.
I need friends who encourage one another and forgive one another where there has been an offence.
I need friends who look at the heart, not just the 'packaging'. Not just for what it can get in return.
I wonder how Facebook can make amends. Perhaps, it is only the superficial quality that lasts in our lifetime. That a Man's deeper nature can never be known. Perhaps, it is a higher ground for us to learn about life. About how to forgive ourselves. About how to deal with our emotions. About how to live in both the positive and the negative. About how we are gifts to the world around each other.
This is for a dear friend in Pattaya, Thailand.
I am glad that we made the time to meet yesterday. I am glad that we decided to talk. I am grateful that you allowed your heart to open up, even when you knew that all conditions were not favourable. I appreciate your courage to share your story.
You have my respect, my dear friend. How I am in awe of your strength to get going with your life and set plans in motion of what would be the next best thing for you. Even with all the certainties that lie ahead of you. For all the small steps that you are going to take to uphold through your withered force in life.
Favourable circumstances may not be at your side now. Yet, you are able to raise your head. To have forgiven the past and not even wanting to voice your anger. Not to give vent to your bleeding heart to a failed relationship. For they are the past and you knew you made mistakes. That you were part of them too. Indeed, you are a great gentleman.
I cried not because I felt sad for you. I cried not because I will lose you as a friend. My tears were probably the stories of my insecurities. The sadness to see a beautiful soul with a broken wing. With all the footloose of what lies ahead and the unknown rough patches.
For you have made the decision. One that you feel will change the next path of your life towards your peace. Your joy. For now, I can only pray for you. For all the courage and strength. For all the faith of a better life you are seeking.
May you stay in the light of all things well, my dear friend.
***********************************************************************
And here is a picture for another dear friend.
[Saw the guys playing it and it brought memory of his 'lost' .. haha]
